smile-lover

2008-05-24T09:04:00.007+08:00

hey lurker.

wla lng. just giving u something to read. since i don't blog here na. haha.

uhm, add mko sa multiply pra nmn ma-read mo blog ko. haha. para nmn updated ka pa din, dba? kawawa ka nmn e. :)

cge take care na lng ah. :)

i love my pachot♥ :)

2008-05-05T18:25:00.006+08:00

ANG LALIM.

buhay nga nman. haha. parang ang laki ng problema e noh.

dko lang kc maisip kung paano ako napunta dito. lahat nman ginawa ko para maprotektahan ang sarili ko, pero bakit ganun? bakit biglang ang hina ko?

isang tao. yun lang. as in iisang tao. pwede pala talaga un? ung may isang tao na dahilan ng katangahan at kahinaan mo.

ang labo lang. kasi kung ung isang taong un ang dahilan, bakit hinahayaan natin na maging mahina at tanga tayo dahil sa kanila?

aminin man natin o hindi, kahit ano pa ang gawin sa atin ng taong un, sila pa din ang dahilan kung bakit mas gusto nating gumising sa umaga.

masaya magmahal, lalo na kapag sa taong mahal ka din. pero hindi nman ito puro lang saya. madaming problema at komplikasyon. minsan, nsasaktan pa nga tayo. pero may nakapgsabi na ba na simple at puro saya lamang ang pagmamahalan? wala. at kung meron man, sinungaling yun!

** masaya ako kung nasan man ako ngayon. choice ko ito at kahit minsan ay nasasaktan ako, madami nman akong natututunan in the process. i don't really know where this would lead me, or us. the truth is, nobody really knows what's gonna happen nman. all i know right now is that it is ok to get hurt sometimes, tao lang tayo and we have feelings. if you don't get hurt, then i don't think you can call it love. **

2008-04-27T18:05:00.003+08:00

alone.

hahaha. alone daw :)

pero OO. nko nko. hndi ganun ah. i am with someone (pero since he's somewhere out there, haha), medyo tini-take ko ang time na ito para mgQT with myself. haha.

ok ok. wla nman tlgang bago. ang dami ko lang gustong gawin before school starts to ruin my ME-time. haha. may ganun? pero seryoso. ngayon lang to, kaya dapat sulitin ko :))

SWIM.
kung pwede lang araw-araw magswim, pero nko, ang kulay ko. ayayay. haha. whatever. i don't care na lng. gusto lang ienjoy ang summer. :))

DVD.
ang sarap magwatch ng mga series and movies na medyo di ko napapansin nung may school. haha, ang loser e noh. hndi naman, may mga pinanood lang kami ni chot na hndi nmn nmen natapos. hehe. so ang saya lang na ntatapos ko na now :)

CLEAN.
i've been wanting to clean my room ng super tagal na. pero hanggang ngayon... uh, magulo pa din sia haha. so un, ittry ko tlga this week :)

RENEW.
nko, ang license ko. haha. nung feb pa expired. ang tamad ko nkakainis. pero basta before school starts :)

PAINT.
wala lng. nagvolunteer kami ni dennis na magpaint ng living room nmen. haha. ewan. good luck smen. tas pag kaya il repaint my room :) sabi ni chot pink nlng daw. so un, sabi nia e. haha :)

BOX.
gusto ko tlaga magboxing. as in. ewan ko lng, sa dami ng list ko of things to do.. sana magawa ko pa ito hehe :)

andme pa. hehe. ewan. bahala na :P

2008-04-19T06:56:00.003+08:00

yo.

haha. nko nko. tgal ko d nagpost. fixed something lng. haha. nsa multiply ung details. hehe, pero d rin detailed. labo ko. haha. e kc bsta tntmad ako mgopen nito. hehe. e dun isahan lng lahat. hehe. kya un.. click nio nlng sa links.. kya lng strictly for my contacts. so add nio muna ako, haha.. CIAO :)

2008-04-12T04:38:00.002+08:00

OUR FIRST :)

uhmm.. at first.. sobrang opposite ng iniexpect ko.. as in parang ewan.. bsta ang labo noh? hehe. ang cold lng. :)

tas sympre naayos dn.. were good. uh, complicated but good. :)

2008-04-11T17:18:00.002+08:00

tick tock.

ok, d clock is ticking. its 6 hours and 52 minutes before our u know. haha. YEY!!!

nko nko, ang sad.. our first.. and he's not here. boo. hehe :P

ewan ko b. kairita how he's acting. how were acting. haay. la ko gana magpost. F*ck nmn tlga. bsta. LOVE sucks.

2008-04-10T13:58:00.005+08:00

ILOVEYOU to the FULLEST.

grabe our last talk was something. haaay..

grabe nung inask ko sia kng npagmukha ko nb siang tanga. he said YES. tas grbe, super naguilty ako. xe ndi sia nagalit sken nun. tas inask ko kung bkt d sia nagalit nun.. tas sbi nia... MAHAL kita kaya ganun tlga.. kc unconditional dpat..

grbe, e super bad ung ginawa ko kya. dko lng pwd iblog, haha. bsta ewan, close to being unfaithful n un.. and D NIA KO INIWAN..

khit magulo kmi lagi.. LOVE ko tlga ung lokong un. ang mean ko p nmn pag ako ung galit.. tas minsan ang babaw ko pa. hehe. ang lucky ko tlga to have him :)

at khit n hndi perfect ang relationship nmin, wla nko iwiwish pa.. as long as were together, WE'LL MAKE IT. :)

Hey my BEST...

IM SORRY.. for being topakin, demanding, impulsive at times and for letting my anger control me most of the time.

THANK YOU.. for sticking around, for understanding, for taking care of me, for being so patient and for making me feel that you really love me.

I LOVE YOU.. just because i know you're the best for me and i am my best when i'm with you.

2008-04-10T05:00:00.002+08:00

d sia galit :)

nkita n nia ung pics sa galera :) haha, ang sexy ko daw. WEH? haha, pero oo nga.. sabi nia :)

nkktuwa dhil dhil sia ung ngssbi n bawal ako mg 2 piece.. "maglong sleeves at jogging pants ka" waaah!!! "swimsuit?.. bodysuit nlng" hahaha. nko nko, wala lng :)

2008-04-09T19:44:00.008+08:00

ang init.

grabe today. super init. haay.. tas ang boring pa. haaay.. what a day.

uh, nagwatch lng ako ng dvd d whole day. the L word. haha. tibo nko. JOKE. haha. anu b un?! hehe. sorry nmn, wla lng mgawa.

wla tlga ngyari msydo today. i miss him n super :( ang sad nmn. mlpit na. as in mlapit na. bglang masaya nman. haha, can't wait :)

nkausap ko p c jun2. haha. wla lng. ang kulit. nagswim dw sia. tas loko un, an dme dw nka 2 pc dun. haha. tas kinwentuhan ko lng sia bout dun sa ano. haha, inaasar ako. adik. nko ah, malabo un. ako n ngssbi. secret lng nten un ah.. alam m n.. ayokong maasar nung 2. shett, quiet ka lng please :))

ang init tlga po. kya aakyat n uli ako sa room ko haha :)

2008-04-08T09:05:00.007+08:00

today is nothing to do day. haha. nko nko, wla akong mgawa. uhm, might watch dvds lng d whole day. grey's anatomy marathon. wuhoo :)

npnood ko n ung 1st 2 seasons e.. and now nlng uli ako mgkkron ng time to watch d 3rd season. boo me. hehe :)

uh, today i woke up early. tas un, i was talking lng to someone. i think galing siang work kya gising p sia.. hmm, tawa lng ng tawa sa mga kwento nia about stuff. haha. parang ewan, lasing yata.. kay aga aga hehe. ah bsta, ang nonsense pero ang srap tumawa :) thanks ah, ang baba tlga ng boses m pag morning.. at ang tagalog mo ah lumalalim na dn haha :)

anu pb? uh, wla nmn. hehe. dko p naupdate ung multiply pla. tntmad nmn ako mgupload. bagal xe e. bsta bsta, soon.. haha. may gnun ;)

2008-04-07T18:57:00.007+08:00

wuhooo.

went to tagaytay nung weekend. haha. nice nice :)

it was actually my mom's lakad and we just tagged along hehe. ang gnda nung place, kya lng ang layo dn super. s un, took lots of pictures. tas ang cute p nung kids dun, bsta they were so charming. cna gabby and julian :)

ngswim dn pla kme dun. tas ang nice xe indoor pool sia tas hot water pa. e super lamigin nko ngyon. kya natuwa nmn dw ako dun haha :)

tpos today nmn, hmm.. today was ok. still missing chot nga lng. wawa :'(

pero may good news, he might go home ng may na instead of june. yey! khit d p un super sure, ok n dn. may 26 yata, kung papayagan sia sumabay sa ate nia. haaay.. sana sana :)

parang ewan nmn, mtagal pdn pla ung may26 haha. naccrazy n nmn ako hehe :))

2008-04-05T01:34:00.005+08:00

tagal.

haay.. tagal gumising ng iba dian. hmp.

went to skul knina. grabe ang init. hehe. tas un, waited for the lists to come out. i was with nhel pala. tas un, around 3pm n yta nilabas. at YEY! 3rd year nko :))

pero d ako masyado happy dhil ang dme nung nsa list. haay.. hope they'll make it.

after pala, nagpasama ako k nhel sa acer. grbe, ang tgal ng service nila. nkakaiinis. nagco-close n cla, tas andun pdn kme. hehe. kainis. pero ok lng. nkabili nko ng charger ng laptop. yey uli :)

tas magkatxt pla kme knina tas as expected, d kme nkpgchat kninang afternoon. text lng kaya lng, naubusan dn ako ng load. tas un, sbi nia pag kaya pa nia ko antayin until makauwi ako, chat dw kme. e ang late n nsa acer pdn kme kya un. sbi ko later nlng. tas d p nagigising. hmp. hehe.

hmm.. ok lng nmn, knina nmn sia dn nagantay e. hehe. e kya lng, antok n dn ako.

d ako nk2log ng mhba dhil dumalaw c ozzy :) kwentuhan lng hehe. chaka nagwatch ng you tube. search nio pla ung "ken lee" haha. ang funny :D

anywayssss... wala. hehe. wla nko mgawa e. :)

2008-04-04T02:13:00.008+08:00

new layout :)

haay.. here it goes again.. kng kelan nmn umu-ok na ang lht, ayan n nmn. arrg. sna nmn hayaan nlng kme mging happy. :)

ayuuun. hehe. im back from galera. nkkbitin hehe. pero its ok. hehe. wish he was there with me but he can't. so yuun, super text nlng kme. haha. at naubos ang load ko dhil dun. bsta xe ano e. haha. un n un. :))

so un. bsta msaya ung trip. i was with cna weng and jepoy, donna, cj, shy and jesse. pero nung pbalik, 5 nlng kme. nauna n cna jepoy and weng. bsta ok sia tas d rin msydong mgastos :) dme nmen pics hehe. check nio nlng sa multiply ko :))

so anyhooo.. mgkachat lng kme lage. haay, d ako sanay n ang layo nia. nkklungkot dn pla. kya ako, dko tlga cguro kya ung long distance relationship. ang hirap nun, torture. hehe. :)

uhmm.. haay, kng pwd ko lng iblog ung ano. kya lng d pwd e. haha, lumalabo n nmn ako as always. :))

2008-03-29T23:25:00.008+08:00

malapit na :)

almost same time last year.. nagsimula ung kami :) and now, pgkatapos ng sobrang dameng away at pagbabati.. andito pa din KAMI :)

psst chot.. im missing you already.. haha. ang corny ko na nman. uhmm.. pakabait ka dian ah? hehe. basta basta.. alam mo na un :) 8352 :)

galera on monday.. yey! :) thanks pala sa mahal kong pachot sa pagpayag. at dun sa sinabi nia kung bakit nia ko pinayagan, kakatuwa :)

dnt worry, ill be good po..:)

2008-03-26T22:20:00.003+08:00

goodbye.

huhu, umalis na sia. ang layo na nia.. mis ko na agad ung lokong un. hehe, pero totoo :)

ang dami ko gusto ikwento pero dko pwd i-blog e. haha. sayang sayang. ang dme p nmang ngyari nung pag-alis nia. happy ako dahil nahatid ko sia and all pero sad pdin kung iisipin tlga xe iniwan nia ko. haha, parang d bblik e noh? wala lng. e bkt ba. haha. :)

uh, sana pakabait sia. haha. lpet na mg-1 year.. tas magisa ako nun.. tae, lungkot nmn.

2008-03-24T10:10:00.003+08:00

holy week.

went to quezon. with sina tita esther and family :)

basta, we stayed there from thursday til black saturday. sa villa anita. tas went to a church dun. tas basta famous daw un e. prang miraculous daw.

tas after, sa cavite nmn kme nagstay nung saturday night. tas tagaytay nung easter sunday. visit uli sa pink sisters and ate somewhere, dko mremember ung place. tas ganda ng view :)

dko pwede ikwento ung mga ibang ngyari xe wala lng. haha. ah bsta. nkkpagod pero masaya nman.

2008-03-21T23:46:00.005+08:00

we argued for the Nth time. dahil sa participation. haha. arrg.

never cried so hard in my life, and worse narinig nia.

at first, we were just texting. yko n sia kausapin dahil lagi nlng nia kong nkakalma, and this time.. gusto ko tlgang ilabas ung galit na nfifeel ko.

nung medyo nailabas ko na at nramdaman ko n galit na dn sia.. pumayag n din akong tumawag sia. tas un, away na to the max. ngayon lng yata kmi nagaway ng gnun. ung nagkakataasan n ng boses. dati xe kinakalma lng nia ko, d nia ko sinasabayan. arrg. tas un, we kept blaming each other hanggang sa di ko n nnpigilan. i cried.

tas d nko mkahinga. he told me to stop crying and i tried, but i can't. haay... and then, sinabi ko na ayko na mkppagusap.. ayaw nia ibaba kaya un.. we stayed quiet lng.. tas after a while, pumayag na din sian ibaba ung fon.

i thought that was the last tym ill hear from him. pero tumawag din sia after a few minutes. and all he said was SORRY. i never heard him like that for a long time. and i just felt the sincerity. and then we were ok. i really missed the old him, and now he's back.

tas after, pinapunta ko nlng sia dito sa haus tas un.. stayed here.. ang saya :)

tas when he had to go na, saktong padating n mom ko. haha. kaya un.. hinatid ko nlng sia outside.

tas txt lng kme. kya lng kulit ko yata xe muntik na sia mbangga, wawa. tas un nagpatawag muna sia dahil ntakot daw sia.

tas un ang kulit ko. hehe. e ang tagal na uli kme mgkikita dahil punta sia somewhere. kya un, sinundan ko sia. haha. tas parang tanga xe nagaway p kme onte. hehe.

pero syempre naging ok din uli :) tas un. MASAYA AKO, MASAYA KAMI :D

2008-03-19T23:36:00.004+08:00

TAMAD.

ang tagal kong ndi nagpost. super bc xe sa skul.. finals and all..

anyways.. uh, im doing fine now.. may bago kaming favorite word. participation. haha. basta. secret na lng un. basta ok na ulit.im HAPPY :)

2008-02-14T20:52:00.001+08:00

happy valentine's day everyone :)

today was ok. hehe.

ewan. masaya na malungkot. ayoko na mgbgay ng details masyado. hehe.

had lunch sa max's with my favorite boys haha. ewan. wala sa mood. takaw niyo. hehe. nkakatawa p c jp pinabalot ung buto nung crispy pata and chicken. buti pa daw ung dogs nila may food mmya. hehe. ang kulit. pero nakakahiya xe hndi nakapaper bag. nkaplastic lang. haha. buti nga, joke :P

tas ano na... c ano.. at c ako.. parang tanga hehe. drama queen daw ako. boo. haha, joke. nangaasar pa kasi :P

uhmm. basta alam m n un ah :) ang labo noh. pero salamat kasi di mo tinapon. haha. gagsy ka talaga. ang cute mo nung sinabi mong "pwede patago?" hehe. kaso sabay tanong, "o bakit ka naiiyak?" haha. adik. :P

happy valentine's uli sayo. sten :) labo naten haha :P

2008-01-26T08:50:00.002+08:00

In The Past 24 Hours

1. Talked to a cute boy/girl?
-- yup.

3. Talked to an ex?
-- oo, c pachot.. ex ko na sia ngayon e. wawa :(

4. Miss someone?
-- super.

-Last Person Who-

5. Laid in bed with you?
-- chot, napahiga ako sa inis. tas nagusap kami ng nkahiga haha. ok pala un, walang eye contact. mas madali magsalita.

6. Last person made you cry?
-- chot, haay..

7. Went to the movies with ?
-- cousins.

8. Went to the mall with?
-- angel and adrian.

10. Made you laugh?
-- chot, bago nia ko paiyakin. hehe.

11. Said they love you?
-- chot pa din, at last iloveyou na cguro nia un.

18. What are you most scared of?
-- sa ngayon, ung di mapanindigan ung decision ko.

21. Does anyone like you?
-- cguro nman. hehe.

22. Do you like being around people?
-- depende sa tao. hehe.

23. Have you cried recently?
-- yupyup. mula pa yesterday. :'(

24. Are you lonely right now?
-- super.

25. Song stuck in your head?
-- i'll be okay by amanda marshall. gusto ko magemote e.

26. Have you been on radio/tv?
-- yup.

28. Ever liked someone who treated you
like crap?
-- oo. pero basta... d nman cguro crap. unimportant lang. hehe, gnun din :)

31. What time is it?
-- 8:57am

32. How much cash do you have on you
right now?
-- secret hehe.

33. Whats your favorite food?
-- ice cream :)

35. Who got you to join MySpace?
-- ewan na..

36. Can you lay in your bed all day?
-- dati, basta ksma ko chot tas kwentuhan lng bout anything.. haay.. ngayon, magisa at nagmumukmok.. wawa..

37. Wish someone was next to you in the
morning when you wake up?
-- oo nman...

38. What web site do you visit the
most?
-- friendster. blog ko. multiply ko.

39. Do you know someone's email account password?
-- oo, k chot lang. hehe.

40. First thing you did when you woke up today?
-- nagisip n nman. nalungkot. continued crying.. hehe joke. :) prayed for strength. haha, pero seryoso ah.

2008-01-25T16:32:00.001+08:00

OVER.

today, i can officially say that its over.

nagpunta sia today dito. dapat after lunch pa un e. ewan. pumunta sia agad ng mga 11:30. tas un. grabe, usap sandali tas nonsense. tas bglang uwi na daw sia ng 12:15. ang great nia talaga.

edi un. since 12 na un. sabi ko magusap na kami dahil aalis na sia. so un, akyat na kami sa room. tas un. dko alam nung una kung pano ko isastart e. basta un. i told him na it has to end na dahil wla naman na ngyayari sa relationship namin (kung relationship nga na matatawag un).

so un, nasabi ko na. hindi nia xe napapansin na minsan sobrang mean n nia sken dhil lang nappressure sia. so un, i ended it. ang labo lang xe ayaw daw nia. tas sabi pa nia, decision ko lang daw un. CYCLE n nmn, arrg. lageng ganun un e. tuwing mkkpgbreak ako, laging di sia papayag. haaay..

tas un, i told him that we can't be friends anymore. tas ayaw nia. tas bakit daw. arrg. tas di ko maexplain. basta un. tas wag nmn daw. bale wala n daw ba ung pinagsamahan nmen. haaay. di nia magets e.

tas ni-HUG nia ko. ayaw daw nia. tas naiyak ako lalo. ang hirap talga ng process of breaking up. haha. tas un, i HUGGED him din ng super tight and i told him na im gonna miss him.

after that, wala he stayed pa muna. pero wala lang kwentuhan. xe parang i told him not to text me na and stuff. kya parang last day na tlaga nmen together. kaya un.

tas bsta ewan kung panu ngyari. we KISSED. arrg. ang stupid ko talaga. ewan ko ba. pero ok lang. last naman na e. haha. shet. i know nman what he's trying to do. wla lng. pero same pa din. di na kami together talaga. he went home ng mga 3pm yata.

so un. basta. ang gulo. basta ang pangit nung end. cguro xe i never thought na may ending kami. haaay. pero wala na e. thankful na lng din ako dahil i met him and we had fun naman talaga.

ayoko na magpakabitter. haha. no doubt nman na we loved each other. basta. ok na un. kung anu man ang mangyari sa future, bahala na.

i still have school nman. dun ko nlng ibbgay lhat ng time at effort ko. haha :)

2008-01-14T21:38:00.001+08:00

panindigan.

haaay.. pinasok ko to kya dapat kong panindigan. haha :)

ok, sooo... di masyadong ok nung morning. haha, nice start noh? wla e. gnun tlga. tiis. hehe :)

lunch. ate sa jollibee with jp and nica. napikon pko k nica nun.

after lunch, nabad trip uli. niyaya ko nlng bumaba c jun2. punta kme ng fiorge tas kwentuhan sa 2nd floor. hehe :) nica joined us din.

after that.. nagtxt na. ok na uli ako. haha. masaya KAMI. :) napangiti n uli nia ko :)

stayed til 6pm xe overtime ung class. tas un, kulitan lng with the guys. hehe. pinagtatawanan nila ung comment ko k jp. nilalaro xe nia ung toblerone n nagmelt. tas sbi ko bka sumakit tyan nia, hehe. para daw akong hndi med student mag-isip. haha :)

so un.. ok na sana, masaya na ang lahat....

nung uwian na, i txted someone. tas un. nagsimula na an kabadtripan. haaay.

parang walang gana. bakit kaya gnun? parang tanga. tas un, i wanted to call him. tas later nlng daw xe nkikinig sia sa radio ng phone nia. arrrg. ang galing galing nia. tas nung nagtatampo nko, 'ayan ka na naman'. yan lang ang nasabi nia. arrg.

pero i still called him. TANGA nga kasi. hehe. tas un, ang saya kausap. walang gana. tas lahat na pagkatapos nun, disaster.

kelan ba mgiging maayos? bakit ganun? haaay... panindigan. un nlng. panindigan hanggang kaya. MAHAL ko e. shett. haha :)

2008-01-12T13:15:00.001+08:00

katangahan.

kung meron mang perfect example ng word na to.. AKO un. haha. shett.

oo inaamin ko. ang tanga ko. haha. we TALKED na. and it went GOOD, for HIM. grabe. sobrang idol ko tong guy na to. he made it look na it was all my fault.

"Hindi kita sinisisi. sinasabi ko lang ung consequence ng ginawa mo. lalong gumulo."

haha, di nia tlga ko sinisisi noh? NICE.

oh well. sige. he EXPLAINED his side. sinabi nia kung ano ang gusto niang mangyari. and it was all upto me. e hello? BKIT AKO? para ano un? Para if it doesn't work out, ako n nman ung masisisi na pumayag ako with it. haaay :(

so un, di ako pumayag. i WALKED OUT. i texted him na its better if we DON'T COMMUNICATE with each other na. para easier dba? pero d na nman sia pumayag.

i asked him,

"Ano ba ginawa ko sa'yo to deserve all this?"

tas he answered,

"WALA, pressured lang ako."

sige, pagpasensyahan. sia lang kasi ang may pressure sa mundong ito. haha. oh well. how can he be so selfish. were talking about US, pero lahat ng sinasabi nia.. its all about HIM.

tas he said tinatamad na sia and that he was sad, basta. so un, i asked him kung pumayag bko with what he likes, at di nako pasok sa afternoon class ko, kung sasama ba sia sken so that we can talk more. tas biglang may aayusin daw sia. wtf?!!! here we go again with his reasons. tas nageexplain n nmn sia. whatev.

so there, i went home. wala na kong gana after that e. so i asked him again. if he's coming or not. tas hindi daw. nkakabanas.

"grbe,, salamat ah. NOW WERE DONE. i just hope you're happy.."

"...... Parati yan cnasbi m"

nice answer noh? haha. ang galing nia talga. kaya na nia ko mawala pero everytime i ask him, hindi naman daw.

nasan na kaya ung guy na nagsabi sken na... please wag mo kong iwan, di ko kayang mawala ka.. mahal talaga kita.

ung guy na nagsabing.. andito lang ako, walang iwanan.

he's long gone.. haha. pero... im still inLOVE with him. even when he's all different now. ibang-iba na talaga sia. pero ganun e.. sbi nga dun sa song na its not over... THIS LOVE IS KILLING ME, BUT YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE..

and then, STUPIDITY came to me. AGAIN. haha.

i called him. he asked me if i was home already. i asked him to text me when he gets home para i can call him. ang tanga ko dba?

so un, he texted me. and i called. alam ko ang stupid tlga. pero di ko kaya na mawala sia. i really can't right now.

soooo. i told him that. na ok na ko with what he wants. shett, never felt lower in my life. pero un e, ganun e. TANGA kasi. haha :) kaya kahit anong gawin nia sa kin, andito pa din ako.

i don't know if we'll be okay. i did something to upset him na naman kahapon. i'll know on monday :( if he gets mad, wala naman ako magagawa. it was an accident.

ONE MORE THING. after the conversation, may nakita ako. basta dun. at sobrang nakakainis xe kahit na alam kong di sia ung gumawa nun, wala na naman sia magagawa to change that. pero he should. im gonna ask him to. ayokong makita un ng ganun. ang sakit. parang IN YOUR FACE. shett. pag di nia ginawa I'LL DO IT MYSELF. i swear.

ang sama ko na. what's happening to me? haha.

natawa tuloy ako sa text ni cinds.. "crazy. ayos ayos ate". haha. maayos naman ako ah :)

angel went here din sa bahay. to talk to me lang. for me to stop what im doing. at nkailang batok sia sa kin ah :) pero sadly, di pa rin ako nagising. haha.

i was drunk pala din last night. haha. im not myself talaga. im not the kind of person who gets drunk. i swear. good girl ako. haha. i don't like alcohol, i just like its effects :)

kaya lang nahuli ako ng mom ko e. haha. so un, sermon. kaya lang di ko n naaalala. buti nlng nkainom ako nun haha :)

haaaaaaaaaayyyy :( my life sucks. pero sana talaga, everything's gonna be okay on monday. THINK POSITIVE. haha. kahit anu pa mangyari. ITS NOT OVER.

2008-01-12T13:05:00.000+08:00

I'll be okay- Amanda Marshall

It's time to let you go
It's time to say goodbye
There's no more excuses
NO MORE TEARS TO CRY

There's been so many changes
I was so confused
ALL ALONG YOU WERE THE ONE
All the time I never knew

I want you to be happy
You're my best friend
But IT'S SO HARD TO LET YOU GO NOW
All that could have been
I'LL ALWAYS HAVE THE MEMORY
SHE'LL ALWAYS HAVE YOU
Fate has a way of changing
Just when you don't want it to

[Chorus]

Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'LL BE OKAY

Life passes so quickly
You gotta take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters
You'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching
For what was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won't be fair

[Chorus]

I won't give up
I won't give in
I can't recreate what just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin

[Chorus]

I can't hold on forever baby
I'll be okay

2008-01-05T13:15:00.001+08:00

:'(

i hate how i feel :(

khit na sobrang inanticipate ko ang sadness na im supposed to feel nitong mga holidays.. i can't help it. nasasaktan pa din tlga ako.

para sa isang tao... gusto ko lng malaman mo...

i hate our situation. i just hate it. at kahit na lahat na ng friends ko ang nagsasabi na tigilan ka na.. andito pa din ako. letting you hurt me more..

sa totoo lang.. i wanna give up. i wanna give u up. baka sakaling mawala din ung pain kapag ginawa ko un. pero i can't. dahil ayaw mo. at ang tanga ko kasi sinusunod ko pa din ung gusto mo. hanggang kelan ba ganito?

minsan naiisip ko.. kaya ko naman e. basta wag ka na magpaparamdam ever. sana nga pwede un. siguro naka-move on nko ngayon kung ganun. haaay :(

at para naman sa kin...

sana ang new year's resolution mo ay maging mas matapang.. hehe.. dahil sabi nga ni cinds.. mas madami pang mangyayari na mas masakit.. at kung hindi mo na kaya.. may choice ka.. pwede mong i-stop na.. only you can protect yourself from the pain na mararamdaman mo pa lang...

hahaha :P para akong baliw. kinausap ang sarili. oh well. sana sana kayanin ko ang mga mngyayari this year. at alam ko... madami yun. hehe :)

2007-12-24T14:10:00.001+08:00

sad sad christmas :(

haaay.. ang crazy tlga ng buhay ko. nkakainis. haha.

bkit kaya ganun? cinds is right. ako lang ang mkakaprotekta sa sarili ko. at di ko un nagagawa. i know this is bound to happen, i just thought i was in control of my feelings pa.. di na pla.

ang hirap pala talaga. ncacrazy na nman ako. haha. ang labo ko. pero sana wag nlng sia mgparamdam forever.. para magalit nlng ako.. para magising nko. hehe.

at nko, may tinext ps c te lyra last night. nkarelate naman daw ako. haha :P

what's complicated and why does it hurt?

- its when you don't know where you stand in a person's life; its when you're hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime. its when you're like more than friends but not really, and its like you're lovers when its really otherwise.

...darn it. sometimes you would want to wish to have never met that person at all but at the back of your mind, you're thankful you have... :'(

waaaahh! nkakainis talaga pag down ang isang tao.. parang nkakarelate sa lahat ng songs or quotes.. hehe.. nkakabaliw lng :P

2007-12-10T23:42:00.001+08:00

ang cute ng song :)

heard it sa radio, tas la lng. ang nice lng nia..

for someone.. haha, ang corny ko. wla lng. :))

2007-12-10T23:38:00.003+08:00

"Everything"

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus]

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

2007-12-08T06:50:00.002+08:00

unimportant.

nkakainis. tapos na ang exams. tas wla lng. ang pangit tlga ng set of exams na to. nararamdaman ko na mababa talaga ako. pano nman xe ung isang tao.

arrg. lech nmn xe. sana di nlng ako naaapektuhan ng grabe. bad trip tlga.

ang dmeng free time after the exams. and i thought we can spend more time together na. pero bad trip, inuna pa ung ibang bagay. arrg. i feel so UNIMPORTANT tlaga. and wen i told him wat i felt, he didn't even bother to reply. tas sasabihin nia d nxt day na he was inis because of what i said and because of his own problems daw. pero he wasn't inis wen he was doing his stuff. sasabihin na nman nia na it was his way para mawala ung pressure that he's feeling.

nko noh. d ko nga sia tinext d whole day. epal e. tas after, mbait na nmn. ano un, kelangan ko muna magalit? argg. grabe, ang great nia tlga. haay.

tas this coming week, il be sobrang busy na with the CPC. tas sia din with something nia. wala na naman kming time. nkakainis.

nko, naiinis na tlaga ko with what's happening smen. i don't even know if we can fix these things. pero i still hope we can, shett. may mas sustupid pa ba sken? hahaha. oh well. ganun e.

anyways, i have to prepare pa for mom's party tom. i have to do all the groceries and stuff. nko, toxic na naman. hehe. pero ok lng :) ano to e, something to occupy my mind rather than things that are not nice to think or do. haha :)

2007-12-01T17:53:00.002+08:00

toxic na naman.

nko nko. exams na nman. ang saya. hehe. joke.

toxic lahat ng tao. di makausap ng matino. hehe. grabe naman ang hirap ng exams nmen. nkakaiyak. gusto ko n gu-mive up. haaay... :(

tas ano pa. alam m un. di ako makaaral. pano xe ung isang tao e. weirdo. argg. nakakainis. nkikisabay sa exams ko. nakakawala tuloy ng gana mgaral. nararamdaman ko tuloy na pangit tong 4th long na to. pangit talaga.

nko, nagbabago na. sana ngayon lng dahil may problema. sana maging ok na ang lahat. sorry if wala akong nagagawa para makatulong sa ngayon. sana after exams ko, bawi tayo :)

i miss you, my someone. :)

2007-11-23T21:12:00.001+08:00

crazy.

may ginawa ako knina na super crazy. haha. grabe nakakakaba. hehe, dba angel? adrian? haha. nakakatawa talaga.

may binantayan xe ako. haha. tas un nung nkita namin, napatalon pa ko sa likod ng car dahil baka makita ako. haa.h tas nung papasok na sia sa kotse, bumalik nko sa front at ngdrive. hehe, tas un, bad trip. dko nakita. ung likod lang. haha, lahat ng kaba para lng sa likod. waaah. haha :P

tas un, nakita nia ko. haha, mlamang alam nia ung plate number. hehe, nko pasensya nlng sia at matigas ang ulo ko. haha :P

pero seryoso na.. im so sorry po sa isang tao. alam ko na di sia pumayag na gawin ko un. pero xe gusto ko talaga gawin un. at khit na basta, mahirap i-explain. basta di ako magagalit or maiinis sa nakita ko, for one week. haha, lagot ka nxt week, joke. hehe, wla lng. :)

2007-11-23T20:12:00.001+08:00

late kmi knina. hehe. grabe natraffic ako. tas dinaanan ko pa ang maarteng c nica. haha.

tas un, quiz sa IM. hehe. tas lecture. tas ung lecturer din pala ung adviser nmin ni sha sa CPC. hehe. e wala din kming alam dun, kaya un. wala din. parang nagpakilala lng kmi na kmi ung ihahandle nia. hehe.

tas un, nakakatawa c jp. kinuha nia ung bag ko at ibinaba sa 2nd floor. hehe, buti na lng walang pasok ang 3rd year. tas un, kinain lang namin ung dala kong pasta. hehe. para kming sira dun. kmi nina jp, jun2 at nica. palitan sa pagkaindahil isang fork lng dala ko. hehe.

tas un, sabi ko xe wag naman kmi sa canteen kumain. tas niloloko nila ko na nabusog na sila dun sa dala ko. baliw talaga ung mga un. hehe. pero nagmax's kme. hehe. mbuti naman. we ordered chicken and veggie lumpia. tas c nica lng nag pepsi na bottomless. hehe. lahat kmi nkiinom, parang tanga. hehe :) tas nung bayaran na, wla na. gulangan. haha :P

tas un, OB na. nag-psp lang cla. hehe. c jp, sumisigaw. haha. di nia lam na malakas boses nia dahil nka-ear phones pa sia. hehe :)

tas un, d nko nagpedia. umuwi nko. hehe. tas iniwan ko cla. nakakatawa xe c nica.. parang baliw. hehe. bigla nlng dumating. hehe, cnabay ko na din sia.

tas sinundo ko na cna angel. may ginawa lng kme. haha. tas trinoma na. tas nagbuy lng ng gift k jd, my inaanak. hehe. tas un unuwi na din :)

2007-11-22T20:12:00.003+08:00

maaga ako pumasok today. tas sakto c diegs. cnabay ko na sia. hehe :)

tas late naman ung prof ng IM. tas parang ewan. binabantayan ung pagsign ng attendance. haha. segurista. tas nagpaquiz pa, di naman recorded haha.

tas lab diagnosis. c doc damian uli. ako ung trans kya un, nagnotes ako. tas lahat sila inaantok. nagising lng cla nung dumating c doc koa. hehe. tas un, nagquiz. haha, ang dali. waaah, ang yabang. hehe. pero basta, love ko ung subject e.

tas lunch na. sa canteen lng kami. walang masarap. hehe. pero kumain pa din kme dun. hehe. tas nagyosi na cla sa labas, e may nanghuhuli kaya un sa malayo sila nagyosi. tas nagpaprint na din sila ng bioethics nila. tas un, umuulan na. wawa.

tas bioethics. gnun pa din ung prof. ang sunget. hehe. pero nakakatawa c jp. ang kulit ng mga banat. hehe. tas un. wala tawa lang kmi ng tawa. :)

tas un, kumain nkmi nung break. nilibre kmi ni nica ng pizza. hehe. tas un, gutom pa sila. kain ulit sila sa canteen. nakihingi lng ako. hehe :)

tas un, legal med na. kulitan lng. tas un, uwian na. hehe. :)

tas nung uwian na, sabay sken c diego, jun at nica. ang sarap pagtripan ni nica. hehe, niloloko ko xe na c jun2 lng gusto ko isabay haha. parang timang. nagpaalam talaga na mauuna na sia. haha :)

oist nica.. pagaling ka. wag masyado maarte. wala ka naman sakit. hehe.

gawa pa pala ko trans. haaay.. toxic na naman. wawa.

2007-11-21T18:28:00.001+08:00

im gonna stop hating.

hindi ako sanay na nagagalit ng matagal sa isang tao. lalo na kapag ayaw ko naman talagang mainis. pero minsan kelangan mong mainis para malaman nman nia na mali din ung ginagawa nia.

knina, narealize ko na ayoko ng mainis dahil naaapektuhan ang lahat. di pa ko pumasok ngayon dahil wala ako sa mood. mahirap pag pati ung studies ko maapektuhan.

knina din, mas naintindihan ko ang isang tao. na dapat less pagtatampo tlga at more understanding. khit na hndi ko na naiintindihan, kelangan kong pilitin.

sabi ko nga sa kanya. ayoko ng magalit. gusto ko masaya na ulit kami.

ewan, natuwa nman ako knina sa ginawa nia. pero parang feeling ko he did it just because he needed to do it. nkakainis, bkit ang paranoid ko.

at ewan, dahil di ko matanggap na parang wala na talaga. na parang we're both doing this just because we said we'll never leave each other.

nko, basta itatry ko pa din na maayos ang lahat. at gaya nga ng sinabi nia kanina.. mag-aral daw ako. hehe. tama un, napakagandang advice.

oo nga pala.. pasensya ka na sa kin. papansin xe ako. haha. nakakatawa. at ikaw, pinapatawad na din kita. haha, what a term. hndi mo kasalanan lahat. may mali din ako syempre. basta, kahit magulo.. bsta dian ka lng. walang iwanan ah 8352 :)

2007-11-21T18:25:00.002+08:00

more of Grey's.

"They say you don’t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse."

"Pain. You just have to ride it out. You can only hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside."

"How do you know how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love, or too much to ask of someone? When is it all just too much for us to bear?"

"In general, lines are there for a reason. For security, for clarity. If you choose to cross the line, you pretty much do so at your own risk. So why is it that the bigger the line, the greater the temptation to cross it? We cant help ourselves. When we see a line we want to cross it. Maybe it’s the thrill of the unfamiliar, a sort of personal dare. The only problem is once that you’ve crossed, it’s almost impossible to go back."

"She asked me to tell you... She wanted you to know... that if love were enough... that if love were enough, that she'd still be here with you."

"No matter how hard we try to ignore or deny it, eventually the lies fall away, like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth. It hurts. So we lie."

"So go ahead. Argue with the ref, change the rules. Cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play. Play. Play hard, play fast... play loose and free. Play as if there were no tomorrow. It's not whether you win or lose, it'show you play the game... right?

"You're letting her think you're emotionally available. You're letting her think she has a chance. And there is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don't."

2007-11-20T19:25:00.001+08:00

bye-bye phone ko.

wawa. grabe. ang malas ng araw ko. woke up feeling bad dhil sa mga nagyari kagabi. tas di pa ko mahahatid, kaya nagtaxi lng ako. tas un, tinext pa ko nung isang tao. di ko na nireply-an xe naiinis pko sa kanya. tas un, pagdating ko skul wala na ung fon ko. haaaay...

sobrang bad trip. naiyak pko. grabe, nkakainis talaga. tas may mga bago pang rumors. arrg! ang malas.

wala akong gana magblog ngayon. next time na lng.

2007-11-20T18:25:00.003+08:00

Grey's.

DEREK: "We can take it slow. We can take it incredibly slow."
MEREDITH: "We're taking it slower than that! We're starting fresh!"

DEREK: "From now on, you can expect that I'm gonna show up. Even if I yell. Even if you yell. I'm always gonna show up. Okay?"
MEREDITH: "Okay."

DEREK: "I was a jerk. Sometimes boyfriends can be jerks, but it doesn't mean you stop talking to them... You get that I'm saying I'm sorry, right?"
MEREDITH: "You yelled at me for no reason, and then you walked away. And now you show up here."
DEREK: "Of course I showed up. Why wouldn't I? You don't trust me?"
MEREDITH: "I do."

DEREK: "I'm just trying to help."
MEREDITH: "Well, see this? What you’re doing, being dreamy? It doesn't help. It hurts me. It messes with my head. You have a wife to go home to and I'm guessing she has no idea where you are right now."
DEREK: "No, she doesn't."
MEREDITH: "That's what I thought."

MEREDITH: "Hey!"
DEREK: "Hey!"
MEREDITH: "I haven’t seen you on a few days. I left messages."
DEREK: "Yeah, I know… I was just trying to…"
MEREDITH: "I know I told you to stop hovering and you did, and I appreciate that. But now stop stopping."
DEREK: "No, you’re right. It’s ridiculous for me to worry about you all the time."
MEREDITH: "Sweet that you worry. It is. I should communicate more."
DEREK: "Right."

2007-11-19T17:46:00.001+08:00

unfair.

nakakainis talaga. i hate this day. khit gano kasaya ang skul, di pa rin nawawala ung problema. i hate it. bakit ba ang weak ko?!! nakakainis talaga.

dumadating talaga ung time na mapagiisip ang isang tao. nkakalungkot mang isipin, pero minsan sa dalas ng problema.. naiisip ko kung tama pa bang ituloy..

paano kung mas madalas na ung away-bati at lagi na lang may rason sa lahat ng nangyayari. pano kung minsan, di mo na alam kung maniniwala ka pa. pano kung mas madalas na ung pagiyak mo kesa sa pagtawa mo. pano kung lagi ka na lang nagbibigay, pero wala ka naman natatanggap.

bakit kaya ganun, ang unfair talaga ng buhay. porket mabait, inaabuso. sasabihan ka na wag mabilis magtampo, pero sia naman ung gumagawa ng ikakatampo.

alam mo, dadating din ung time na mapapagod din ang tao. na maiisip din nito na para mawala ung hirap at sakit, kelangan maglet go... ang problema lang... walang may alam kung kelan un darating. :(

2007-11-18T20:47:00.001+08:00

kahapon at ngayon :)

d ako nkapagblog kahapon. sira xe ung net at pagod din.

APMC xe yesterday. tas un, nagwatch kmi sa valle :) nakakatuwa cla xe ang excited nila masyado magbasketball lalo na cna diego at mikko hehe.

tas un, talo cla. hehe, 1st game nila un. malas daw. hehe. st lukes kalaban nila. tas un, wala lng. may epal xe sa team kaya natalo kmi. hehe :P

tas un, c nica bad trip xe di sia nkalaro. tas un, gusto n nia umuwi. pinilit nlng nmen sia n mgstay pa.

tas umalis ako ng 2, nagbuy ng gift tas dpat punta na sa bday ni quino. kaya lng may ngyari e. basta un n un. tas ndi nko natuloy. sori tlaga ate, dna ko nkapunta. bawi ako k quino promise. idaan ko nlng gift ko this week.

tas un, nging ok din ako nung huli na. tas un bumalik nlng ako sa valle. tas un, 2nd game against perpetual. nkapasok na cna nica at stephen at jopee. tas nanalo cla :) ang galing :) ang saya nung 2nd game, walang pressure manalo di gaya nung 1st game. tas ang saya :)

tas uwian na. hehe. sumabay skin cna glenn, stephen, nica at jun2. c nica muna nagdrive hanngang sa depEd xe dun sia nkapark. tas c glenn n ngdrive hanggang sa bahay :) c stephen pala sunod na bumaba sa ortigas at c jun2 sa timog. c glenn, d2 n bumaba. ang bait :)

tas un ,pagdating sobrang pagod. nkatulog ako agad. kaya d na ko nkapagnet. :)

knina nman, went to mega with mom. nagbuy lng ng mga things. hehe. nkakainis xe ung ibang tao. kaya dapat aliwin ko ang aking sarili. hehe.

tas ate sa pizza hut bistro. tas, dko naubos. hehe. dami ko xe inorder. feeling ko gutom ako, d pla masyado hehe.

tas grocery na sa puregold. grabe. nkakapagod. inaantok nko. d n nman ako nkapagbasa. wawa.

lapit na nman ang exams, sana magkadrive nko to study early. sana lng tlga :)

2007-11-16T17:50:00.004+08:00

tsk tsk.

nkakainis ka. ok na lahat e. di ko lam kung bakit ka ganyan. bahala ka. paulit ulit lng. mapagod ka nman sana sa ginagawa mo. ok na tayo e. tas ayan ka na naman. lagi ka na lng ba magsosori. alam mo ba na kapag nagsori ang isang tao, dapat hindi na inuulit. malamang di mo alam un noh. arrg! bahala ka.

nko.. buhay. sucks.

2007-11-16T17:50:00.003+08:00

bago shoes ni diegs.

hehe, wla akong maisip na title e. pero totoo un. bago sapatos nia. italian shoes daw, haha yabang. wala lng. sinabay namin sia kninang morning, ndaanan ko ksi sia dun sa kanila.

IM first subject nmen. kilala na kmi ni doc adolor. kmi nina vanie at nica. hehe. wala lng. ang galing nia maglecture. kaya lng bad trip, napagtripan n nmn ako. xe tinanong kung cno daw pinakamaliit sa class, ako daw. hindi naman kaya. nko, nkakatawa. tas ung pinakamalaki, c mikko naman. hehe. tas pinapunta kmi sa front. ang funny. haha. wala, inask lng nia kung sa tingin ba ng class e pareho kmi ng amount na naaabsorb sa intestines, haha. :P

then Psych. wala, boring. hehe. toxic ung topic e, wala akong naintindihan.

lunch. di kami naglunch. hehe. ako lang pala, cla kumain na before psych. gumawa pa xe kmi ng homework sa pedia. haha, mga pasaway. tas c nica, walang pc. mkikiedit na lng daw sia sken. ayun, talagang inedit nga lng nia ung gawa ko. daya :P tas nkakatawa ung kina jp at jun2. haha, ang toxic nung mga gawa nila :)

late na kmi sa OB. pero ok lng, wala nman attendance. mga types of delivery ung inaral nmin. nko nko, caesarian talaga ako pag manganganak. promise. hehe. wala lng.

tas gutom nko. kaya magenroll na dapat ako. kya lng, di ko nadala ung form kaya un. haha, ang stupid ko. tas un, kumain nlng kmi. nagsandwich lng ako tas nagpabili kanila ng turon :) tas pinagtitripan nila ko na ung balat daw ng turon ay gawa sa baboy. ewan ko sa inyo haha :P

tas pedia makeup class na. nagpasign na lng ako muna sa kanila xe kausapin ko c doc koa, e ang tagal nia. kaya umakyat din ako. tas un, uwian na. haha.

dumaan ako k doc koa before umuwi. tas un. haha. natawa ako nung nakita ko ung grade ko sa biochem. haha. tas akala nia tinitingnan ko ung grades ng iba. hehe. tas nkita nia ung grade ko sa biochem. waaah. haha, 3 lng xe ako dun. pano daw ngyari un, e nasa top 10 ako. haha. yuck ang yabang :P tas dumating c nica. hehe. papampam :) tas daming tanong ni doc. ininterview kmi. kung magkabarkada daw ba kmi. tas since when daw. haha. tas kung pati daw cna beng at mikko. nakita nia xe ko nagaaral with them sa starbucks last sem. tas since when din daw. haha. interesado :)

tas....wala basta, mga stuff about sa subject nia. hehe, galingan daw nmin. :) tas un, tinawagan n dn nia ung sa accounting para i-keep nlng muna ung money ko para d ko na daw iuwi :)

tas un, nagpunta nko dun. iniwan nko ni nica dahil magpapagupit pa daw sia. ang arte hehe. pero bumalik din sia, hinatid nia ung jacket ko. naiwan ko xe sa car nia. hehe. tas un, nagantay ako sandali. nagbayad. at umuwi na. :)

2007-11-15T20:54:00.001+08:00

exempted pala ako sa micro. haha :)

mukha nio jp. kala nio ha. hehe :)

exempted din silang 3. pero ang yabang nila, alam na daw nila un khit di pa lumalabas ung list. mga feeling, haha :)

2007-11-15T19:26:00.002+08:00

wawa.

natuloy ung ayaw nmin parehong mangyari :( wawa naman. kaya un, di na din kme natuloy kaninang umaga. mabuti na din un xe ang lakas talaga nung ulan.

huuuy, hope ok ka lang. sana maging ok na ang lahat soon..

...kakatampo pala, ayaw mo nung ano. hmp! hehe, joke :)

*ang labo ba? haha, basta un na un :)

2007-11-15T18:24:00.001+08:00

suspendido.

ang lakas ng ulan kanina. halos lahat yata ng classmates ko ay nabasa. hehe. c jp nga ngtanggal pa ng shoes. pero may dala naman siang slippers e. hehe.

wala kaming IM. pero nagpunta c doc cid, naglecture sia about study habits ng isang med student. nakakatawa xe wala man akong ginagawa dun sa mga tinuro nia. never pa yata akong nagaral ng 3 hours everyday. haha, wala akong kwentang estudayante :)

after nia, di pa rin nasususpend. tas inannounce na magearly lunch nlng daw muna dahil late ang prof. so un, d nko sumabay kina jun2 at jp. inantay pa xe nmen ni rikki c nica. tas, bad trip. may new rumor n nmn about sken. arrg. tas nko, ang nonsense. halatang walang mga magawa.. haaay, nkakalungkot naman... ang buhay nila. haha :P

tas lab diagnosis na. c doc damian n nmn, arrg. hehe, pero mabait sia knina hehe. she gave us additional points pa for being there :) tas i love this subject. hehe, basta, natutuwa ako. inaasar n nman nila ko. ang yabang ko daw haha. wala lng, nahawa nko sa kanila :)

tas bioethics na. bad trip ung prof. forgot her name na. haaaay. pagpasok nia, nagpaquiz agad. tas 1-10 na enumeration. tas wala pa yatang 2 minutes, pass na daw. arrrg. kumusta naman?!! 2 plng nasulat ko. hehe, pero ung iba name pa lng haha :) tas un lecture na, tas quiz uli. bad trip ang bilis tlga nia magpapass. tas lecture n nmn. haaay...tas ano na.. suspended :)) yey!! hehe :)

kakainis. 2pm na nila nasuspend. pero ok na din :) tas buti nlng madadaanan ni glenn ung mga way nmen. kaya un, sumabay na kmi nina jp, jun2 at nica. thanks glenn sa paghatid :)

tas paguwi, nkakainis. walang internet connection. sucks. kaya natulog nlng ako. at kakagising ko lang haha :) ang sarap sarap matulog :)

homework time na. wawa :(

2007-11-14T20:00:00.001+08:00

tampuhan.

wala lng. nagtampo pala ako sa isang tao kanina. basta un. ang arte. hehe. tas nagtampo din yata sia, slight. hehe. pero naayos din namin. pacute xe mga text e, haha. excited nako tomorow morning :) ah basta.. niloloko ko nga sia na bumabawi lang, hehe.

sana pala di matuloy ung ayaw namin parehong mangyari, wawa nmn sia if ever.

pssst.. bumabalik na tayo sa dati.. sana napapansin mo din un.. ang saya na uli natin :)) nko nko.. hehe, wla lng.. 8352 :))

2007-11-14T19:00:00.001+08:00

late nako nagising knina. late na din xe ko nakatulog kagabi. ginawa ko pa ung IC nmen. wawa. so un, buti na lng di pa ko late sa skul.

pagdating sa skul, ang labo pa nung presentation nmen. basta magulo pa chaka daming kulang. di na kami nakinig dun sa lecture dahil tinapos nlng nmen.

nung una, c rico ung nagaayos. tas natotoxic na sia smen ni ven, kaya un.. ako na lng daw para mabilis daw mgtype. hehe :)

tas malas, napunta kmi kay doc b. haha, bsta sia n un. e toxic xe sia. dapat nga sa laptop lng e, bgla pa nia naisip na gamitin ung projector. kya un.. tas c ven ung ngreport smen. tas dme cnsbi at tnatnong ni doc. pero ok na nung huli, khit inubos nia ung oras nmen.. perfect nmn daw grade nmen :)) yey, ang saya.. hehe :)

naglunch kami sa canteen lang. pero kmi lang ni jun2 ung kumain. c jp xe ayaw nung food. tas c nica wala daw gana, nagiinarteng may sakit hehe.

pinag33pan n nmn ako, tas sabi ko may araw din sila. tinawanan lang ako, ang epal haha. tas un, tambay sa labas. tas niyaya nila ko magDOTA, sbi ko cge hehe. tas nung ayaw ko na, ang liar ko daw haha. ang kulit. tas nung napilit na nila ko, wala na.. time na. haha :)

nagpalibre nlng cla ng ice cream sa fiorge, kaya un. c nica ang feeling, dapat di sia kasali xe may sakit nga daw sia. pero un gusto dn pala. :)

fcm n nung after lunch. natulog lng kme dun. tas nung 2pm na, kumain muna cla. pagkaalis nila.. uwian na. haha :))

tas nung tinitxt ko cla, kakain plng cla. e tnamad nko sumunod dun, kaya umuwi nko :)

2007-11-13T18:17:00.001+08:00

laughter.

pharma. wla nman masyado nangyari, may activity lang. talo kami, haha :)

clin rad was boring. as always. buti na lng maaga kme nadismiss.

c diego ang kasabay ko kumain dahil nagDOTA cna jp, jun2 at nica. kaya un. pero ok lang. birthday pala ni diego. loko un, dko alam. edi libre na sana lunch ko. haha :P lilibre daw nia kmi sa saturday :))

surgery. late cla. nagquiz pa naman kmi.

after surgery, nagaya kumain c nica. cnamahan nmen sia sa fiorge. nilibre nia ko ng shake. hehe. tas un, pagbalik nmen ng room, tawa na kmi ng tawa. ang kulit nila. pinagtatawanan pa nila ko. hehe. lakas mantrip.

tas inaasar pa nila ko na mgeexam sa micro dahil dapat daw walang 55 and below na exam. e ang alam ko no grade lower than 55. bwisit. hehe, sana naman di na ko magexam. haha :)

tas lahat ng tao tnatawanan nila. hawa hawa na ung tawa namen. tas dumating na ung prof ng pedia, ang kulit pa din nila. c jp hinika na, tawa pa din ng tawa. haaaayy... ang saya lng talaga namin.

tas after dismissal, nagmeeting pa kmi. para dun sa CPC daw. ewan. hehe, parang tanga. ayoko sumali dun pero required daw kami. tinatawanan tuloy nila ko. hehe.

tas inantay ako nila jun2 at nica. dapat hatid kmi ni jun kaya lang nasa sm ate nia, kaya ndi na lang. nagcab nlng ako tas sumabay c nica hanggang espana.

napagod ako ngayon, lalo na sa kakatawa. pero kelangan ko pa gawin ung sa IC nmin. gud luck nlng sakin. hehe.

ang sarap tumawa. ung wala kang naiisip na problema. ung khit pagod ka na. ung kahit ayaw mo na... cge pa din. ang labo, haha :) sana laging ganun, masaya :))

2007-11-12T20:13:00.001+08:00

i love you times infinity plus one :)

8352 :)

2007-11-12T18:33:00.002+08:00

boredom.

RULE!!! THINK OF "ANY" PERSON
YOU "CANT" SAY THEIR NAME GO!

1)IS THE PERSON MALE, FEMALE, OTHER?
*- male daw sia:)

2)WHATS YOUR CODE NAME FOR THIS PERSON?
*- 8352. dingsky. pachot. mahal :)

3)WHERE AND HOW DID YOU MEET THIS PERSON?
*- dun, nagpacute lng sia. hehe

4)WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT THIS PERSON?
*- lahat :P

5)WHAT DON'T YOU LIKE ABOUT THIS PERSON?
*- he's complicated. hehe, joke.

6)IS THIS PERSON A FRIEND ON FRIENDSTER?
*- nope.

7)WHAT SONG DO YOU WANT TO DEDICATE TO THIS PERSON?
*- i need to be next to you. i don't wanna smile. i hate that i love you.

8)WHY DID YOU CHOOSE THIS PERSON?
*- ewan. wala lang.

9)HAS THIS PERSON GIVEN YOU A TESTI OR COMMENT?
*- nope.

10)DO YOU THINK YOU LIKE THIS PERSON?
*- di lang like ;P

ANSWER THE QUESTIONS DIRECTLY &
DESCRIBE THE PERSON'S:

1)HAIR
*- supeerrrr nice :)

2)FASHION STYLE
*- ewan. hehe.

3)ATTITUDE
*- makuleeeet sobra. funny. maalaga.

4)HABIT
*- madami e.

5)FACE
*- gwapo daw. sabi nia.

6)VOICE
*- pacute. pachot sobra :)

7)SMELL
*- suuuppeeerr bango.

8)LIKES
*- akoo :) haha, feeling ako e.

9)DISLIKES
*- sila. hehe :)

10)IS THIS PERSON A FRIEND, CRUSH, BF, GF, OR OTHER (EXPLAIN OTHER)?
*- sia ay isang kaibigan. crush ko daw sia (crush din nia ko, hehe). bf ko sia. gf ko din sia, hehe.

12)DO YOU ENJOY BEING WITH THIS PERSON?
*- sooobraaaa :)

13)DO YOU FIND THIS PERSON CUTE OR UGLY?
*- super cute. very mabango. uber gwapo. haha :P

14)WHAT IS YOUR MESSAGE FOR THIS PERSON?
*- haha, wag ka magfeeling kapag nabasa mo 'to. kakainis ka talaga. pero namimis pa din po kita :) 8352 :)

2007-11-12T18:13:00.002+08:00

sinisipag.

hehe. wala lng. di pa naman xe ako toxic sa skul. chaka ang tagal ko na din hndi nkapag-update nito.

haaay.... hindi masyadong masaya ang umaga ko. wla lng. puro kadramahan, hehe. grabe ang sakit ng mata ko. bad trip :)

pathology. boooorrrriing. hay. unang prof ay c damian. nko, di ko sia mkakalimutan dahil npakahirap ng huling exam nia. parang may galit sa min. hehe. wala pko sa mood, kaya hindi ako nkkpagkulitan kna jp.

tas nagbreak, kala ko tapos na patho. ang saya sana. tas bglang dumating c de leon. haaaayyyy... nko nko, ayoko na. hehe. lumabas muna ako. nkipagkwentuhan sa cr. hehe. andun xe cna nhel, ais at vanie.

tas after, nagpunta nko sa spare room. nabad trip lng nman ako dun. nkakainis. kaya itinulog ko na lng.

ginising ako ni nica ng past 12. bad trip, d pa tapos ang lecture. 12:30 na kmi nadismiss. ang saya.

jp, jun2, nica and i decided to eat outside. sinamahan muna nila ko sa bank tas dun n dn kme kumain sa tropical hut. pinaorder pa nila ko ng 1/2 na spring chicken. wag daw ako magalala dahil andian naman daw sila pag dko na kaya. hehe. kaya un, pagbigyan :)

i feel better na nung after lunch. ang saya nung neuroscience namin. basta may case tas ida-diagnose mo sia. hehe. alam nio ba ung series na house? bsta parang ganun kaya ang saya. tas ntatawa at nkikipagkulitan na uli ako kina jp at nica :))

walang pediatrics :) yey!!!!!! hehe. hinatid ako ni nica dahil kawawa naman daw ako. parang tanga. hehe, joke.

nagwatch din pala kmi ng house. tuwang-tuwa naman sia. hehe. tas umuwi na din after.

may basketball game nga ang boys namin mamaya. gusto ko sana magwatch pero wala akong kasama. dapt cna angel at adrian kaya lng napakaarte ni nica, nhihiya daw sia. haha. whatev. :P

2007-11-11T17:14:00.001+08:00

HATE WAITING.

i am waiting... again.

huuuy.... nagpromise ka. nkakainis ka. nkakainis ka.

2007-11-10T16:22:00.001+08:00

arrrg!!!!

nkakainis tlaga ung ibang mga tao dian. npaka- inconsiderate sa feelings ng ibang tao.

dmo alam kung ginagago ka lang. kung mapapanindigan b nia ung mga sinasabi nia. kung mini-mean b nia lahat ng mga sinabi nia sayo.

ewan ko ba sayo. bakit ka ganyan?

alam mo, ang galing galing mo!

haaay... ang labo. sana kaya ko din maging kagaya mo. ung tipong go with the flow lng. para di ako masyadong mahirapan at masaktan :))

pero anu nga ba magagawa ko, everytime i leave.. u always know the words to say and the things to do to make me stay. bad trip, ang stupid ko.

2007-11-07T18:14:00.001+08:00

painful realities about LOVE.

01. flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see

02. bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget

03. showing that you care

04. finding a way to mend a broken heart

05. learning that you've been used by someone you truly love

06. saying i love you when you mean it and when you don't

07. letting go of a person you've just learned to love

08. realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted

09. realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with

10. waiting for promises you know he will never keep

11. saying your love for someone who loves somebody else

12. reminiscing the good times you shared together

13. shielding your heart to love somebody

14. trying to hide what you really feel

15. having a commitment with someone that you know would not last

16. trying to hide the tears that voluntarily fall from your eyes

17. sharing the one you love with someone else

18. loving a person too much

19. giving up someone you never thought of giving up

20. falling in love for the first time

21. loving someone you haven't seen

22. having the right love at the wrong time

23. exerting effort to make the relationship last or work

24. not being appreciated when you know you've given your best

25. taking the risk to fall in love again

26. hiding your relationship from someone else

27. controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend

28. choosing between two persons whom you really love

29. finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of

30. seeing the person you love with someone else

31. learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared

32. seeing the one you love fall for someone else

33. falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again

34. learning to trust after you have been betrayed

35. accepting that it was not meant to be

36. smiling when all you want to do is cry

37. falling and knowing that it can never be

38. not being able to love the person who truly cares for you

39. saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you

40. hearing that he can never love you the way that you love him

41. saying that you are over someone you still love

42. being friends again and learning to let go of each other coz you both know it is better that way

43. convincing oneself that you are not in love when you know that you are

44. having to let go because you know that he deserves someone else

45. trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be

46. breaking up with someone you love who still loves you and later...wanting to go back because you realized you’ve made a mistake but then, he doesn’t want you back anymore and then just when he realized he still loves you you’ve moved on and in someone else's arms.

47. forcing yourself to change even though you don't want to/really have to...just because the one you love thinks it's better that way.

...copied this from mhai's blog.. wala lng. the bold ones are, for me, the ones that hurt most. :))

2007-07-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

what a week.

un lng ang masasabi ko. hehe :)

monday. it was fine pa. medyo hndi ok nung morning pero nung later part na.. it was better. may namiss lng ako.. ;)

tuesday. fast forward nlng.. after school, went out. wee :) antay muna mwala ang coding. tas aun. dinaanan muna nmen ung book k janszenn. tas trinoma na :)

pagpasok plng nmen sa parking, haay... after icheck nung guard ung trunk, ayaw maclose. waaahh!!! ang tagal dn nun. kainis pero un, eventually nagclose dn. nung time pa na nwawalan na kme ng hope. hehe. tas after nun, naligaw nmn kme. haha. hndi nmn. panic mode lng xe kala nmen malelate kme sa movie. tapos tapos. transformers! :) heehee. pero comment lng, nice po sia. lalo na ung graphics. pero inantok nko towards the end. aun lng.

after the movie, nasira ung isang plan nmen. kya un, trip lng. punta kme dapat tagaytay. pero that was around 1am na. naisip nmen na mhirap mgdrive pauwi lalo na xe may class pa kme ng 8am. hehe. so un, nagmcdo kme sa macapagal tas uwi na. stayed lng dn sandali sa car. we talked lng dun and it was nice :)

bsta. i really had fun. we had fun :) dba dba?!! :P

wednesday. haaaaayy.. syempre hndi ako nagising. haha :P tas to make things worse, ang sakit po ng ipin ko. haaay. so un, d ako pumasok at nagpunta nlng sa dentist. at ng-goodbye na dn ako sa aking left 1st molar. wawa :(

cold diet daw ako. yey! ice cream galore :) at may isa pang malaking surprise. pero secret nlng un. basta masaya, ndi ko knailangan ng pain reiever nung time na un.. hehe, exagge! :)

thursday. back to school. at tumaba daw ako.. sa left side nga lng daw ng face ko! haha. kainis. bad trip. ang bait pla ni glenn, he bought ice cream nung break nmen para mbawasan ang pain. thanks po :)

and ano pla. haay.. parang ayko ikwnto ng buo e. bsta npagalitan kme ni doc koa. we should be ready daw for our pathology exam.. mukhang hihirapan tlga nia.... kebs.. :P

nung lunch, pagkatapos ng kaguluhan na hndi ko na ieexplain further. d kme sumabay sa boys maglunch. humiwlay muna kmeng girls dahil bsta, may problem lang c ais. and gusto nia muna kmeng makausap. so un.. haaay... ang gulo nila. un lng ang masasabi ko..

tas after nun, masaya na uli :) heehee :P basta, may nagvisit lng. nice nice :)

friday. it started ok. as in ok tlga. dennis treated me pa nung breakfast sa mcdo. thanks :) tas ate it sa car lng since locked daw ung classroom. went to mass ng 9am. resume ng classes by 10am pero wlang prof so we decided to eat out.. again :) i was with nhel, ais, rey, peewee, jp and junjun :)

we ate at sbarro, yum! :) ang dami ko order. pizza and pasta. haha. basta ang takaw nmen :) at ang cute kumain ni jp. so un, late kme for our next class. baad :P

ah basta nung micro na.. dun n ngstart.. kainis tlga. bsta.. pero it was ok na nung gabi. haaay... kung hndi tlga..................

saturday. ngayon un. hehe. masaya ang morning ko, lalo na nung may bloopers. haha. funny xe may isang taong nkakatawa. basta, kausap ko sia knina tas may ginawa sia na sobrang funny, pero secret lng daw nmen un, kya un.

dpat alis ako ngayon, pero d natuloy. haaay... okai lng.. study nlng ako..

tapos na po. hehe. :)

2007-06-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

back to school.

haha. ang late na. nasira xe ang laptop kaya un. mtagal na din pla nagstart ang class. at ok nman. masaya.

broke na pla kmi. haha. since nung first day yata, super gastos tlga. almost always tlga kme kung maglunch out. haay... pero its ok. super fun nmn e.

suuuper hirap n ng subjects. waaah! sobrang ang hirap pa mgconcentrate dahil ang daming "the watchers" haha. ah basta. un na un. mtamaan sana sila. mkinig nlng sa letures kesa mgwatch. haha :P

2007-06-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

enrollment.

waaa. today was just great. haha, ang pangit xe ng start ng day ko. d ko nawithdraw lahat ng pangenroll dhil nagexceed na sa limit. kumusta nman un?

haay, dumating ako sa skul ng mga 10am. sabi xe ni marte 9:30 daw kme mgkita. nko, kung akala ko late nako, natalo pa nia ako. hehe. sia din ay ngkaproblema sa atm. so un..

inaasar nila akong lahat sa aking hair. hehe. ganun tlga guys, kelangan ko ng magmukhang mas matanda ng onte. sbi nga nila kung dati ay grade schooler lng ako, mukha na daw akong high school ngayon. haha :P

so un, naglunch kme sa fiorgelatto. kasama ko c marte, mommy, daddy at kat. kwentuhan lng about mga series na pinapanood nmen like house and grey's anatomy.

after, start n ng enrollment. kainis c jesse xe inaasar ako. narinig daw nia ung mga kinwento ko k ate joy nung nag-moa kme. waaa! hndi pwede! haha.. shet, nkakahiya!

nung nkapila na k doc koa, syempre ako ay nasabon. haha. ang dami kong kulang na requirements e. sooobra. haha. parang lahat yata. haha. at paglabas ko, inaasar lang nman ako nina jesse, jun2 at rey. crazy people :P

so un, tuloy na kme ni marte. tas nung sa registrar, ayaw i-sign ung sken xe nga ang dami kong kulang. tas inaasar n nmn ako ni jun2 at rey. hehe, pero ang bait nila xe tinulungan nila ako gumawa ng promisory note. thanks po :))

tas c jun2 lng ang nkapagbayad smen. pagkatapos, nagshake c rey at sumama lng kmi. tas un..

uwian na. :)

**may tumawag skin pla :) pero ewan. ang gulo. ang labo haay...

2007-06-03T13:48:00.000+08:00

out. :)

waaa. im starting to go out again. im not that sad anymore. haay.. buti nman. :)

last sat, i went out with ate joy, jon2, kuya lloyd and his friends. sinundo nila ako ng mga 6pm. hehe, masaya nman. kkpagod lng.

una, nagpunta muna kmi ng moa. ikotikot. nkita ko dn dun c jesse. hehe, d daw ako nmamansin. e di ko nmn tlga sia nkita :P

tas dumating na ung mga friends ni kuya lloyd. members cla ng street scene na group. they're all into cars and stuff. so un, meet nmen ung iba sa blue wave. dinner sa gerry's. tas dko lam kung 1 or 2am un, uwian n daw. pero they took some pics pa ng mga toys nila. hehe :))

aun, got home early. haha :P

2007-05-29T10:48:00.000+08:00

"RISE"

I know that it's over

But I can't believe we're through

They said that time's a healer

And I'm better without you

It's gonna take time I

I'll get over you

Look at my life

Look at my heart

I have seen them fall apart

Now I'm ready to rise again

Look at my hopes

Look at my dreams

I'm building bridges from these scenes

Now I'm ready to rise again

Caught up in my thinking, yeah

Like a prisoner in my mind

You pose so many questions

But the truth was hard to find

I better think twice I know

That I'll get over you

Much time has passed between us

Do you still think of me at all?

My world of broken promises

Now you won't catch me when I fall

2007-05-28T12:48:00.000+08:00

sadness.

haay.. iv been thinking a lot this past few days. something happened that made me really sad. akala ko kasi if i let go it would make everything right. pero if i made the right decision, bkit parangang gulo.. bakit nkakalungkot. nkakamiss. haaay....:'(

i was really happy. no doubt tlaga. ewan ko ba. ang labo. hehe.

ngayon ko lang narealize, you can't let your anger eat u.. yun ang nangyari sa kin e. a lot of hurtful words had been said, and we all know that what's done is done. it was really insensitive of me.

i heard this song knina, i just thought that the song was telling me something.. haaay...

" Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?

Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be

Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you pray to me

As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your hurting me

What am i to do with a broken heart "

nko, nko... everything happens for a reason nmn e. sa lahat ng ngyari.. at least naging masaya ako, kami.. no regrets... tama, no regrets.. haaay.....

i just miss being happy ... :'c

2007-05-24T13:48:00.000+08:00

i got sick.

wawa. anemic daw ako...

checkup lang tlga ko nung sat. pero when my doctor saw me, d n nia ko pinauwi. kumusta nmn un dba? sobrang prepared. hehe. wla lng, kelangan ko lng daw xe ng blood transfusion. 68 lng xe ung hemoglobin ko, e 120 lang nmn ung normal value. d nmn masyadong malayo. hehe. kaya... waaaa!!! ang scary bgla.

aun. after 3 bags of blood, a lot of visitors, overflowing food, and 4 days in the hospital.. im finally ok. hehe. kind of pla.

i just wanna thank everyone who came. lalo na ung mga kbarkada ko : angel, grace, kharu, ozzy and bart (akala yata ng mga nurse ay may party sa room ko, hehe). k novi dn salamat sa mgaan mong kamay at sa pag gising sken ng madaling araw. hehe. bsta sa lahat sa inyo.. u guys are the best :)

..nanalo nga pala c kharu sa palmolive circle of 10, cograts girl :)

***super thank u pla kina ate sha, kuya louie at tito jun for donating blood po... :)

2007-05-16T17:50:00.000+08:00

WAY BACK INTO LOVE

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need them again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but i just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

2007-05-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

waaaa! bored :C

honestly, dko lam kng gusto ko na may pasok na or wla. haaaay.. walang magawa e. i wanted to go out pero d nmn ako pnapayagan umalis. lecheng sakit yan. :c

haaay.. today was okay.

woke up early. i thought im gonna leave with my mom, dpat mgpapawork up nko and stuff. pero she had a meeting pla ng morning, so un. went back to sleep.

woke up again at around 8. hehe. tas i invited a friend to come over for lunch. so un. after eating, we rested lang a bit. then he had to leave na din. di sia eat and run coz he rested pa muna dba?.. haha :P

after he left, used the phone. wla lng. kwento, blah.

tas i watched music and lyrics. yey! haha, delayed. ang tagal ko ng gusto un panoorin e. hehe :))
it was nice. i love the song way back into love. wla lng. un nga message tone ko e. inggit c angel. haha :P

after, i decided to take a nap. pero ewan ko ba. ang short lng. kainis. woke up agad. so un, naginternet nlng ako. :)

nga pla, pls vote for my friend kharu sa palmolive circle of 10. she's the prettiest lang nman among the girls dun. syempre friend nmen e. hehe, pero serious po.... pls help her po to be the 1st member of the Palmolive Circle of 10.

*4 possible votes per sim card/day*

1: SHINE A/KHARU

2: SHINE B/KHARU

3: SHINE C/KHARU

4: SHINE D/KHARU

** send to 2366 **

*4 step voting can be done once a day until may17, 11:59pm*

thanks guys :) vote po kyo ah..

good luck kharu :)) were all praying po... mwah! :))

2007-05-14T13:48:00.000+08:00

think.

naisip ko lang. does love make you think less? just wondering. bkit kpag happy ang isang tao with someone, hndi na nia naiisip ung mga nasa paligid nila? and they say love is not selfish, parang contradicting lang.

haaay... wla lng. ive been having a lot of thoughts lately lang. sharing lang. hehe :)

2007-05-10T13:48:00.001+08:00

goodbye black.

i changed my hair color. hehe. wla lng. don't know what had gotten into me. hehe. pero... hello brown hair!!! :))

iwewelcome ko nlng sia khit feeling ko hndi masyadong bagay sken. hehe. i also had my haircut. wla lng. ang init xe e. ewan ko ba.

nko, weirdness n nmn.. haha :P

2007-05-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

thankful :)

maraming salamat sa mga taong nagpapasaya sa kin ngayon :)) wla lng. i just feel blessed to have all of you. haha. ang drama ko.

wla lng xe ako magawa. shett. ang boring. may inaantay xe ko. tas ang tagal. haay.. huuy... ang tgal mu... hehe :P

2007-05-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

Love Will Show You Everything

Today, today I bet my life

You have no idea

What I feel inside

Don't, be afraid to let it show

For you'll never know

If you let it hide

I love you You love me

Take this gift and don't ask why

Cause if you will let me

I'll take what scares you

Hold it deep inside

And if you ask me why

I'm with you

And why I'll never Leave

Love will show you everything

One day

When youth is just a memory

I know you'll be standing right next to me

I love you

You love me

Take this gift and don't ask why

Cause if you will let me

I'll take what scares you

Hold it deep inside

And if you ask me why I'm with you

And why I'll never Leave

My love will show you everything

2007-01-11T15:14:00.000+08:00

i love YM!!! :)

nkachat nmen c iantot today...yey!! :P

wla lng, until now nga e. pero i gave ian and nhel some privacy muna. haha.. :)

ang saya. wla lng. nkakamiss sia :(

bad trip lng xe ang jologs ng internet shop. wlang webcam chaka speaker. sayang di tuloy kme mkita ni iantot. hehe. pero ok lng, kchat pdn nmen sia.. sna laging gnito kahappy c nhel.. :))

2007-01-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

t.g.i.f

it was val's treat. ksma din nmen c parpz. sobrang tagal na dapat nun pero ndi lagi natutuloy. so un, ang sarap ng foodie :P

tas ang saya lng, puro kwentuhan chaka tawanan. tas bglang sbi ni parpz.. c toni. haha. tas inulit nia. tas npatingin kme. oo nga. hehe. tas nkita nia ko, sbi lang nia.. "huuuy!!" haha, parang knina lang magksama kme ah. hehe. funny lng. tas un, tita pinty invited me for tin's birthday :)

tin had to leave din dhil may bible study daw with other artists. so un, we were done eating na xe so i said bye nlng to tita. kain daw ako uli. haha, ang kulit.

so un, uyyy valorie ann! thanks po sa pagtreat. hehe, super enjoy lalo na nung nagserve c minette. haha :P

2007-01-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

asap day :)

we went to asap today :) i was with nhel, ais, marte and ate babes. the plan was to meet at starbucks at around 10am so that ate ne can give us the tickets. we were late. good thing ate babes was there na, i told ate ne to give it to her instead and we'll meet nlng after. so there, i waited for marte pa dito haus. tas ais and nhel went to starbucks na. we got there at around 11am na.

we went inside na. sobrang ang init. nko, bsta tas ndi nice ung unang place nmen pero lumipat din kme sa mas ok na place. ayun, watched the show :)

after magperform ni tin, ate ne said we can stay na sa dressing room xe mgulo na after ng show. so un, we waited for tin there tas picture picture with her and others :P

haha, visit nio nlng multiply ko for pictures. kya lng those were taken from my phone lang. hndi pa daw naupload ni ate babes ung sa digicam nia.

so un, ang kulit :) tas when tin went ahead na, we stayed lng there sa dressing room xe gusto pa ni nhel magpapic with rica. haha. wla lng. so un. tas paglabas nkasalubong nman nmen c john. hehe so un.

2007-01-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

antipolo :)

angel, adrian, popc and i went to cloud9. wla lng. trip lang. i was alone xe d2 sa haus. so there, haha. d tlaga kme pwedeng mbore ni angel. dmi xe nmen naiisip e. hehe. wla nman masyado ngyari. kwentuhan lng super. bonding :P

thanks popc for the ride :)

2007-01-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

i saw angel today :) hehe, kya lng di nia nman ako binigyan nung pasalubong ni adrian. hmp! :P

i have seen some of my exam results.. and it was pretty much okay. wla pa ung iba pero may mga predictions nko.. i do hope.. as in sobrang hoping na i'll pass biochem na. and i know na din nman na im gonna be super baba sa neurology. haay, if dra paragua sees me and talks about the exam, im damn sure na papagalitan nia ko... waahhh! sobrang unexpected tlga ung exam nia.. :(

2007-01-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

haay, bt kya gnun?

new year na po, mdami na ang nagbago at nagsasabing magbabago.. pero ang problema ng mga tao.. andian pren..

ung isa kong friend, super sad because she's missing someone ng sobra. its not because he left her but because he had to leave. i had given her hundreds of advices na and i know na she always listens. she follows some of it, pero most of the time she doesn't. ok lang un, i know nman that in love, u have to follow what your heart says.. syempre we don't wanna see her cry all the time pero at least nailalabas nia. sna lang time will make her feel alright.

ung isa ko nmang friend.. she told me something today that hit me hard. she's having the same problem i had almost 4 years ago. ayoko mging specific basta its about betrayal of trust. dko lam pero everything came back, lalo na ung pain. dko mdescribe ung feeling, all i know is that she's hurting a lot. dko din alam pero i didn't have any advice. We just stayed there in our room until she stopped crying.. the truth is, i really don't have to tell her anything.. i just know that she'll come out of this experience as a much stronger person.

ako, ayoko pa magisip ng mga problema. feeling ko its too early.. hehe, yaan na muna ang problema ang mamroblema sken :P

nga pla, nga pla... :)

i just received a txt message from ian. Ewan pero I kinda know how nhel really feels, well at least part of how she feels. waahh!! haay, wla daw siya malambing dun. ayaw daw nia mpagisa dahil sobrang lungkot daw. i remember him saying before he left na yun ung fear nia. sabi nia, lahat kme mgiging sad pero mgkakasama kmi.. tas sia mgisa sa isang place na hindi nman sia familiar.

bsta iantot.. sana wag ka na mging sad dian. dto pa dn kme.. just a text or an email away. i miss you too.. and i will send your regards to the whole class.. :)

2007-01-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

sad :'(

ayoko magdrama. hehe. pero ian had left us na.. he left for australia nung 29. kung may one thing na nireregret ko, yun ung hindi ko paghatid sa kanya.. good thing nhel, rikki and glenn was there. uhmm.. nhel, kumusta na pala ang puso mo? haha :P

wat makes me really sad is the fact that ian was one of the few good guys na nkilala ko. sobrang sincere and gentleman. (db nhel?!!) and i have spent a lot of time with him na super fun. bsta lagi xe kming nagmumoments.. hehe :)

much harder pa, xe magreresume na ung class tom.. reality is setting in. he's not our classmate anymore. im just so sure that the class won't be the same without him. nko, ang sad :(

uyy iantot.. wag mo kmi kalimutan ha.. lagot ka sken!!! haha :P

miss you so much iantot!!!! :P

2006-12-28T07:18:00.000+08:00

a day with ian and nhel :)

it was hell of a day for nhel. morning, she had an accident and nasira lang nman ung front ng car nia.. she was from ian's despedida. i wasn't able to attend though..

nhel and i met at the mrt station in magallanes. she was wearing heels tas spag strap dn. ang sarap tumawa. haha :P panu xe ang layo ng lalakarin nmen.

tas un, super hirap kumuha ng cab. haay, i hate commuting tlga.. grr...
tas super layo nun. haaay.. feeling ko probinsya na. ewan ko ba kng bkit nagkasabay pa kmi ni nhel ng coding. ang malas. shet. :P

we were so hungry pagdating. we ate pretzels lng. yum :) tas after, uhmm.. dumating na c ian.. we watched a movie. dko na ssbhin ung movie ha xe sobrang haha, ewan. bsta ang baduy! hehe. tas super ang corny. sayang ang 100 bucks ko. :P

ang funny pa xe may baon c nhel na pringles, ung hot! haha, parinigan kung sino magttreat ng drinks. hehe. tas un, nkaramdam c iantot :)

after the movie, ayaw pa nmen umuwi. syempre ian will be leaving soon, kya un nilubos nmen ang panahon. we just stayed there. bonding. nagmoments n nman :P

we left at around 11pm yta. freak pa ung mga cab drivers. they were asking for 500 bucks papuntang makati. duh??!! so un.. pinasakay kme ni ian tas un.. nagbus kme. bumaba ako sa shang tas c nhel sa galle. sinundo nman ako ni dennis :)

later ko na lang nlaman na di pla sia naibaba sa galle, sa fly over daw dumaan ung bus e, so sa santolan sia bumaba. haay, talk about bad luck.. nko nhel, hehe.. :P

uhmm.. gusto ko pla magthank you sa npakasweet at npka-madramang text ni iantot!!! :P
haha, ang kulit mo.. ikaw din.. forever kitang ichecherish :))

2006-12-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

christmas party :)

we had pur christmas party at ian's place in paranaque. haay, ang layooo :P

wla lng, nung una.. kanya2. pero nung exchange gift na and award giving na.. ang saya na! :P

nko, ang award ko... grrr.. ms high school award. haay.. kyo tlga.. bad :P

ang dme kong ginawang award dun.. haha.. ung k nhel was babalik ka rin award. haha, ian's mom was shouting na pakiexplain daw ung award. haha, she asked pa if that was her son's gf.. hehe :P

ung pinakafave ko was ung award nung president nmen na laging late.. the late president award. haha.. pumanaw na :P ako nkaisip nun...:P

tas after the party, we went to cj's place. dun kme stay for the night. sa cavite nman un. tas, ang dme na agad nangyari along the way. nagkahiwalay ang convoy, tas lumagpas sina ian, tas nasiraan c peewee. haay :(

pagdating kina cj. pagod na lahat. nkatulog na nga ko sa sofa e. tas nagising nko nung nkarating na lahat. took a bath tas un.. we played 123 pass. hehe. ang funny ni sha :P

we slept for a few hours tas woke up at around 4am para sa simbang gabi. tas parang lahat kme, nanghihina. ang layo pa ng ni-walk nmen. pero ok lng. tas pagblik ng haus, tulog lahat :P

late na kme nagising. we ate breakfast tas we went to tagaytay :P actually, batangas ung forst stop.. sa calaruega.. my favorite place :)) tas picture picture :)

tas after we ate somewhere. dko alam name e. d pla ko kumain xe masakit na tummy ko e.. hehe :P

tas un, uwian na.. i have to go back kina cj xe i didn't bring my car to tagaytay. haha, stupidity lang.. i left my key k glenn. he was at the other sasakyan and di na cla daan kna cj.. haha, nko.. pasaway! so un, dinaan pa nila..hehe.. ang gulo ko :P

sa cavite nko umuwi nun. dumating ako mga 5 na cguro.. long day :) tulog nko by 6pm.. haha, sarap matulog :P

2006-11-30T02:06:00.000+08:00

haay... tinatmad pren ako. haven't blogged for so long. i don't have time na xe. was too busy with school. chaka tinatamad mgisip...

been spending my time lately sa pgwatch ng dvds. ung mga series. bsta. aliw lng. lalo na ung bout medicine syempre. i really love scrubs!!! :) sia n ung 2nd sa friends for me. basta. tas niwawatch ko dn ung the O.C. chka veronica mars chka house md chka desperate... bsta dme. hehe. ewan ko ba. ngiging masama na nman akong estudyante. bad :(

this set of exams will be really hard. nafifeel ko na. we have lots of activities the week before nung exam. kamusta naman daw un? haay.. mukhang im not gonna have a stress-free christmas ah. hehe.

change topic. i really miss my barkada. wla lng. they have been busy with their work. nkakasad lng. i was just browsing our pictures and started missing lng our lakadss.. lalo na ung mga takas. hehe. i just hope matuloy ang aming christmas party. nko guys.. if you're reading this.. miss ko na po kyo ng sobra!!! :)) mwaahh!! :)

aii... nga pla.. i watched project runway's final show last monday and my favorite designer won.. yipee!!! :)

congratulations chloe!!! :)

2006-10-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

fresh from BORA!!!! :))

heehee..nice nice :)

sorry...dami kwento pero sobrang pagod po e... :(

chaka.. bsta.. uhmm.. bsta.. un na un... :'(
next time nlng... gotta get some sleep first...

2006-10-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

haaaaaaayyyy............

i missed my blog.. suuppeerrr!!!

i can't believe that it has been a month since my last entry. a lot of things had happened. i don't know where to start...

let me explain first why it took me a month to blog again.. well.. i moved! :)

yes i am now living in a condominium with 3 other friends. we don't have internet pa coz we're still adjusting and stuff.. well... its nice to be kinda living alone. haha, feeling independent :P

the condo has 2 rooms. im with nhel and sa other room nman ang brothers na c kuya pat and peewee. bsta, ok naman sia since the condo is new. plus its super near our school. kya msaya! hehe :))

another reason is we just had our 3rd exam. and since i almost failed every subject nung 2nd exam.. study to the max tlga. hehe. i hope lng tlga na mabawi ko un..

3 of these exams has results na.. so far so good :D basta un na un.. sana pati sa major subjects :)

anupaba??!!! waaahhh! ang dami xe e... later uli... :)

2006-09-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

its our time!! finally, we ended 28 at 82.

ANIMO SAN BEDA!!!!

i would like to congratulate our players especially to pong escobar, alex angeles, aljamal, and ekwe!!! :))

this was the closest fight ever. grabe. 1st quarter - PCU was leading. 2nd quarter - we were leading. 3rd quarter - still in the lead. it was during the 4th quarter that we made us concentrate on the game. we had a 20-point lead at first pero nkahabol ang PCU. waahhh!! tas nung last 2 minutes, 3 points nlng. di pa nagshushoot ung mga free throws nmen. tas less than 1 minute, 1 point na lng. it wasn't exciting anymore. sobrang scary!! 30 seconds yata, naagaw ng PCU ung bola. waahhh!!! buti hndi nagshoot! tas un! waah!! WE WON!! :))

shett, gnun pla un! ang sarap ng feeling. sobrang sarap kantahin ng san beda hymn after that victory. isipin nio nman.. it took us 28 years bago maging champion uli!! ah, basta dami dami pictures sobra. basta cutie xe mga players nmen e. haha, basta un.. saya!!

2006-09-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

haaay...

wla c doc ivan e. kya un. o sia. tama na. hehe.

wla nmn ngyari today. went to rob place with peewee, ais and nhel. wla lng, pinagod lng nmen ung srili nmen. hehe.

pero before we went home, kumain muna kme sa razon's. halo-halo. nice :)) best halo2 tlga un. bsta not too sweet and no beans!! just the way i like it. yum tlga!! :))

aun lng.. went home na tas internet. :))

2006-09-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

today was great.

first subject was psychiatry. at ang topic.. human sexuality. haha. nkktawa. parang attentive tlga ung class. hehe.

anatomy. our lecturer was dra sharan. haay. ang sama nmen pero d tlga nmen maintindihan ung accent nia. so un, d ako nkinig.

lunch at mcdo. i was with nhel lang. tas may dumating na clasmates, bsta un na un. tas nkinig sa usapan nila bout someone. hehe.

went back to skul. nkita nmen cna marte and sean. so un. ana lab na. we were there lng sa cadaver room tas we were kinda hoping na doc ivan would come. tas parang magic, um-open ung door tas there he was. haha. nice :))

aun. tas funny. doc ivan was teaching us something dun sa cadaver. katabi ko xe sia. tas un, parang tingnan ko daw ung tinuturo nia. c nhel, ang grabe. tinulak ako tas sbay sbi, excuse me d ko mkita. tama b nmn un?!! haha, nkakahiya!! shet, npaupo pko dun sa chair. ntawa tuloy kme ni marte. haha. nkktawa c nhel ;P

tas un, dare daw. kya...uhmm.. un inask ko c doc kung sia ba ung lab instructor uli nmen ng sat. tas nagulat nmn sia, d pla nia alam n may make-up class. hehe. so un, sbi nia try daw nia if wla siang case. sna wala!! :))

after, lab quiz na. syempre mataas sna un. inspired e. nyahaha :P

dismissal na. punta kme gym. weeehh!! andun ung players ng beda. haha, may pep rally xe e :))

so un, etong cna ian.. sbi picture daw kya un.. nagpapic kme nina nhel at cj. haha, nkktawa, fanatic?!! ah bsta, eto oh.. :P

haha :P yan po c #18 ko, c jp escobal. hehe, inangkin :P
ah basta..nkktawa xe ung pic nmen ung pinaka-nice :)) wla lng, kmi na eh. haha, sssshhh.. d nia alam e.. :P waaahh!! nbabaliw kme.. :P

uuuyyy...good luck sa game.. champions sna tyo!! :))

2006-09-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

thursday.

anuba?!!.. wla, nagsulat lng kme nung lec. c doc escobar xe e. nagbabasa lng din. kya un, ang ingay pa nung iba. after nga nung class sbi nia, this is the noisiest and worst class i ever had...but i love you all. haha, ang sweet nia noh?!! wla lng, love ka din nmen doc!! :)

nag-BP lng kme nung lab. tas c doc martinez nangungulit. she was trying to memorize our names and faces. haha, pero c doc..d pa mlabo ang eyes. ang sweet daw xe ng face ko e. haha :)

tas dun sa activity, ung bp thingy.. dpat icheck ung bp after an exercise.. hehe, pasaway ako e. jesse and i went to the gym to watch the practice of the bedan players for a while. hehe, escobal was there of course. at ang hot nia!! haha, wla lng. nkalimutan ko tuloy na may class pla ako. hehe :P

aun lng. uhmm..d ko n mremember ung iba e.

2006-09-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

neuro day. hehe, nkktawa. doc paragua was there. tas akala nmen sia ung lecturer un pla.. hehe, bf bia yta un. bsta. nkktawa cla. prang teenagers. hehe.

uhmm, shett. wla lng. ang hirap xe nung quiz nila e. bad trip. bgay nga cla. haay...

after lunch, weee. no classes in biochem. haha. wla kmeng mpuntahan. kya un, dpat sma kme ni nhel kina jesse and ian. pero we decided to look nlng for a condo unit or an apartment. ksma nmen cna peewee and ais. 1st stop. CEV mansion. at un, uhmm. speechless. hehe, bsta ang nice xe nung place e. bsta gusto n nmen un, isa lng problem.. since medyo expensive sia.. share kme nina nhel at peewee and kuya patrick. hmmm.. payagan kya kme ni nhel na kasama ang boys?!!! ewan..bhala na.. :P

punta kme sm mla after, daan pla muna kme sa ymca xe we told ian and jesse na susunod kme. since tpos na sila maglaro, nagpunta muna kme sa sm mla. wla lng, ikot-ikot and tumingin din ng stuff for the condo. haha, excited :P

aun lng.. nkkpagod. went home around 8 n yta. mom was here na nun, so un.. nagpaalam n din ako. at...pumayag sia :) bothered lng sia bout our housemates. hehe :)

2006-09-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

brain-cutting today in neuro :)

enjoyed it. ewan. parang ang toxic lang nia aralin pero bsta. haha, ang saya :) thanks sa nagsupervise smen na c doc mataverde :)

biochem. funny xe ang boring as usual. so un, lumabas kme. kwentuhan dun. tas bglang..uy..lalabas c doc, bka mkita kyo dian. takbuhan kmeng lhat sa cr. haha :P

after class.. went to araneta with ven, cj, donna, joan, marco, ian, jesse and nhel :P
watch kme basketball.. beda vs letran :)

at frst we were just sitting there xe sobrang more than half ung lamang ng letran. so un, we were quiet lng there tas they were so ybang with all their balloons and stuff. tas un, malas ung first 3 quarters.

pero nko nung 4th quarter na.. waaahh!!! they were super galing na, tas parang wla ng energy ung letran. haha, tas tnago na nila ung balloons nila. haha, go beda!!!! :)

khit sobrang nwalan ako ng boses dun, ok lng. tas may bago pla kmeng inspiration!! weeeehh!!! :) cna players 9 and 18!!! :)

ang pinaka-funny..dun sa place nmen ung entrance papuntang locker ng players. nung dumaan cla dun, waaah!! para kmeng mga baliw dun. haha. shett, nkakahiya!!

congrats pla sa mga star players ko. haha, inangkin! lalo npo k 9 xe sia ung best player ng game :))

2006-09-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

we were supposed to have a makeup class in neuro pero ndi natuloy. we checked lang the exams tas we were dismissed na. ate lunch at mcdo muna.

tas after punta daw paranaque. haha. trip! :P

una, borrowed some things k aisa. tas un, ung car ko nlng ung dinala nmen tas iniwan nmen ung k nhel sa beda. so there, ksama ko c nhel, glenn, stephen at ian. tas ais and peewee was at the other car.

shett, ang layo lng nman. nakakahilo pa xe ang init nung araw. so un, naggrocery muna kme. dme food!!! :P

ian's haus na, nice :)
nagbilliards muna kme. tas sinamahan nmen c peewee sa knila to get his things. tas un, pagblik nmen dun na c jesse chaka ung mom and brothers ni ian. tas haha, basta. kuya na tawag ko k ian :P

so un, bihis na kme. tas swimming na!! :) nag-inuman dn pla ung boys. tas haha, ang saya! kya lng ung mga boys nmen e. halata tuloy kme ni nhel. pinaswim pa nila. haha :P

tas dinner na, dme food. yum!! :) tas tnawagan nko ng mom ko. tas c nhel din. kya un. after nmen magbihis, nagbilliards uli kme habang antay nmen ung mga boys. may pizza p na dumating pero we were all so busog na tlga :)

tas uhmm..balik n kme beda. uwian na. bad trip pa. xe paguwi, nagshorts nlng ako. tas malas. cna mommy nsa baba. waaahhh!!! aun, sermon po. wawa ako :(

2006-09-01T20:15:00.000+08:00

gggrrrrr!!! haaay..i am so mad right now!!! i really need to let it out..

bkit ba xe may mga taong npaka-demanding at bossy?!! haaay.. feeling ang galing2 nia!! oo na! madame ka ng alam! sna nman, wag mo gawing stupid ang mga people around u!!!! u can always tell it in a nice way, u know?!! haay, and please... don't give me the attitude that u are higher than the rest of us. dahil u are absolutely NOT!!

im just so sick and tired sa pagdedemmand mo like im not doing other things. pwede?!! i have my own life xe e. haha.

hay nko. sorry kung npaka-full of galit ha. bsta to that person.. im not mad at u.. im jst mad at the fact na u don't know that sometimes nkakahurt ka din ng iba. sna lang be sensitive po sa mga taong nsa paligid..

2006-08-31T05:38:00.000+08:00

acquaintance.

haha. ang saya :P

lam ko d ako papayagan xe dme pa ksalanan. hehe. tas un. d nga ko pinayagan :P

tas dumaan cna ais at nhel dto. paalam daw nila ko sa mom ko. so un. una, ayaw pa. tas parang wla na mgawa. tas un. pinayagan nko. pero pero. haha, 1 hour lng ako. haha. nkktawa kaya :P

tas un. punta kme aruba. bsta fun nmn sia. pictuures :)) nxt time ko nlng iupload. anu pa ba?! ang kulit ni jesse. debut ko daw un. tas anak daw nia ko. haha. dko n maalala xe windang ako nun dhil may curfew. haha.

tas un, d rin alo umuwi after an hour. xe wla p ngyayari e. sayang preparation. nagtxt nlng ako. haha. bsta un, nagdance p kme. khit pangit ang sounds. shet. loser ung dj. haha, joke.

so un, umuwi ako around 12 n yta. 1 hour late sa deal nmen. kya un. bsta alam nio na un. hehe :P

2006-08-30T19:29:00.000+08:00

tita pinty gave us tickets for the premiere night ng movie ni tin :)

i was from skul nun, was excited at first pero.. was in a bad mood nung afternoon dhil sa exam ko sa biochem na nko nman po. aiii, grabe tlga. i feel so stupid :(

anyywaaayss..
went to megamall around 6 yta. basta un, the movie was ok nman. maganda sia. i was not able to appreciate it lng ng sobbra coz i wasn't feeling ok during the movie.

went din sa wake ng dad ni apol after sa paranaque. condolence uli apol...

went to fairview after. basta dun. wala lng. kwentuhan with cna te roxan, kuya j and tin na din. wla lng, regarding the movie. so un, i was with leen, triz and la pla.

i went home at around 5am n yta un. tas i thought my mom was still sleeping kya i made it seem na im sleeping din. haha, buking. ndi rin pla umuwi ung brother ko and she was aware na i was not in my room. haay.. grabe...

ewan, we are not in speaking terms tuloy. i feel so guilty. sna magkabati din kme...

so un, took a bath and off to school... :(

2006-08-18T19:52:00.000+08:00

i want to congratulate nga pla kharu for being one of the prettiest faces to grace our TVs these days. sia lng nman po ung nsa judge na commercial at ung sa lucky me na pansit canton. waaah!!! we are truly proud of you!!! :)) we love you!! :))

if you want to see her.. you can visit www.pbase.com and check her out. just click on the popular galleries.. then choose kharunisia.. basta hanapin nio yun :))

2006-08-18T18:12:00.000+08:00

aug 17-18 :))

celebration of doc escobar's birthday yesterday :)

waah!! so fun, i swear!! :)) bsta lots of food and games. and pictures din. tas pinakafunny na ngyari.. we girls were giving doc a kiss tas jesse made this gesture na he wanted to kiss doc din..haha, sinampal!!! grabe, sobrang laugh trip yun..:P

something hapenned din sa party. basta won't go into details nlng. i just find it amusing how this person made me think about some stuff. basta, with the decision i made.. feeling ko ang mature ko na to have handled it well. haha, basta un na un :)

went to starbucks at morato after the party. met my college barkada there :) fun to the 10th power. basta. picture galore :)) tas talks..jokes..memories...:))

dumating cna angel, grace, kenn, joel and kharu. ozzy and kharu's boyfriend were also there. tas after we decided to stay here lng sa haus :)

so un, kwentuhan to the max. basta nice tlga ung feeling na tawa lng ng tawa. inuman din pla ung boys dun. tas around 11 yata, grace had to go home na. so un, hinatid nmen sia. sama kme lhat. haha. tas c kenn, parang sira. wreckless driver!!! ilang beses akong nhulog dun sa upuan ko sa likod. haha :P

hatid din nmen c angel after. tas balik uli dto haus. eat chaka inom uli sila. tas dami kwento. mga problema sa puso. hehe, ang corny nmen pero ang saya tlaga. basta nkakamiss. tas shet, nkowla na yta sila balak umuwi. waah!! 8 pa pasok ko. mga pasaway. haha. nagtakutan pa. ewan. haha, basta un, uwian na ng 330 am.

salamat sa inyo ha at pinatikim nio sken ang tulog khit papano. haha. kidding! :P
salamat sa mga stories at mga payo nio ha. nmiss ko kyo ng sobra :))

2006-08-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

actually po 6am nko ntulog knina. gumawa xe ko ng trans nmen in ana. ngising ako ng mga 1130 dhil ang ingay ng phone ko. aun my 32 na text messages at 4 na missed calls. basta un, may mkulit. ewan, haha.

so un, took a bath. then un na, boredom. dpat punta ko galle para mgattend dun sa victory. bsta gnun, e kya lng d ako pinayagan ng mom ko. kya un, d nlng :(

tas ung trans pla, leche sia. nacorrupt ung file. bad trip. may isang tao xeng nagsend sken ng virus e. haay :(

tas nung mga 2 na, kme nlng ni angel umalis. d na nkahindi mom ko, bihis nko nung nagpaalam e. haha :P

gateway. tas dpat watch kme the breakup. tas wla dun. putek, bkit gnun!!?! so un, just my luck nlng watch nmen.

'twas fun nmn. tas the whole time nangaasar lng c angel bout someone. haha, bsta. bad un e. heheh :P

after, meet nmen c kat and kuya ewa. tas un, nkita ko pla din classmate ko dun, c jen. tas un, eat kme. wendy's xe dun nila gusto e.

i went home na din agad. pgdating d2, nagwatch muna ko philippine idol. tas text text lng. tas un, nkatulog ako ng past 10..

2006-08-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

bad trip ako nung morning. ung cab xe n nsakyan ko e. kng san san ako inikot.tas sobrang ayoko p nung amoy dun. nhilo lng nman ako ng sobra. kya un, bumaba nko nung trafic. nagwalk nlng ako. haay... :(

so un, physio d whole day. tas nung lunch hiwahiwalay. kme lng ni nel, gawa xe ng homework s clinics. d nmen alam n deadline n e. haha, pasaway!

physio lab, puro pang-medtech ung activities :)) haha, saya! ang sarap asarin ni rey at jun!! hahah :P

after class, pinuntahan nmen ni nel ung isang condo dun sa nagtahan. tas wla nmn vacant. tas un, nagtxt cna ian. meet kme sa jollibee. tas wla mpuntahan. txt nmen c pomps. hehe, so un. punta kme s condo nia. kme nina nel, ian at glenn. tas un.

nkakahiya. xe ngkaemrgency pko dun. haha, bsta. un n un. buti may nkita c pomps dun sa ate nia. hehe. tas un. order kme pizza. chaka watch ng she's the man. aun. kulitan. tawanan. haha. ang kulit xe nila sobra e.

tas un, dumating ung mga ate ni jesse. nkakahiya. tas watch p uli. dko lam title e. bsta c sharon stone andun. d n nmen tinapos xe 930 n yta un. late na. pero bago umuwi sobrang inasar muna nmen c nel haha. chaka ibang people na wla dun, haha. chaka syempre...pictuures.. :))

2006-08-09T08:20:00.000+08:00

anu b ngyari ngyon?!! ahh, 730 daw pasok. weh, 8 nmn ngstart!

neuro lec. bilis mglec, tas break. tas shet, haha. isa pa. shet, ang cute ni doc francis. haha, close! 1st name basis?!! haha, bsta. nkakatuwa sia. wla nga lng ako masyado naintindihan dhil nagmamadali yta sia. pero nagpicture kme with him!! haha, kya lng d sia photogenic e. sayang, ang bilis lng. sna sia lge ung lecturer. haha ;P

early lunch uli. sm manila kme. kitaro. tempura!! :) tas c nel, nagbuy ng pasta s french baker. chaka c ais buy ng desrt sa delifrance. aun, tas blik din agad skul.

biochem, leche. wla uli ako natutunan. kwentuhan kme ni marte ng mga things in common ng skul nmen. pareho xe kmeng st mary's. ako qc, sia marinduque yta. so un, haha. same kme ng songs and all.. haha. tas wla kulitan with daddy rey. hilig mangalabit. tawa lng kme ng tawa. haha :P

tas wla, uwian na. stay lng dun. tas may na-witness kme. haha, may isang taong masaya. kya lng, may sumingit e. haha, sarap asarin. tas un, uwian na! :))

2006-08-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

ang aga ko pumasok xe lecturer nmen ung prefect nmen. hehe. buti nlng. ngulat xe sia nung wla pa ung more than half ng class, e 8 na un. pero d nmn sia ngalit :)

intro to clinics. may activity bout empathy. wla, d nmn ako major role e. hehe. tas lecture. tas dpat isa pang activity, e wla n tym. so un, homework nlng daw.

tas early lunch. wla n daw break ng 12. kya nagwendy's kme. shett, nkksawa n tlga! tas dme n nmn nmeng fries. pinagsama uli nmen sa tray. waaah! nkakasuya tingnan. haha :P

after, histo lec. bilis ng lecture kya nagbreak uli. haha. dun lng kme room, pinaiiyak c nel. dme nmen pinadinig na sad songs. haha. iyakin ka merinel!!! haha :P

tas un, lab n. un, microscope ng mga whatever dun. hehe. tas binigay ung result ng lab exam. waaah! syempre i saw this coming na. 19 lng ako. grabe! 18 ung passing. haha, sumabit. leche, haaay.. ok lng, may next time p nmn.

aun, tinreat kme ni nel ng ice cream xe sia 22 sia dun sa exam. hehe. actually pinilit lng nmen sia ni daddy rey. haha. tas un, fiorgelato. tawa kme ng tawa. haha, bastos nung dalawa!! haha, ewan. tas un, blik room. pictuuures with paolo and marte.. :))

punta kme kina ais after, c peewee nmn pinasay nmen. eat ng chicken hotdog sandwich. haha, gnun kme magtipid e. tas un, kwentuhan. kulitan. tas hinatid nila kme sa lrt.

nkasabay nmen sa lrt c kuya vernon, president ng student council nmen. dme nmen tnong. hehe. aun lng. tulog n uli.. antukin nko ngayon e.. :)

2006-08-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

grabe. sobra sobrang late ako knina. pggising ko xe 730 n. e, 8 pasok ko. kumusta nmn un dba?!! in-off xe ni mom ung alarm e, kya un. todo madali ako. i left past 8 na..waaah! leche, trafic pa!

9 n yta ako dumating. tas shett, nagrerecitation daw pra sa atendance. tas un, kinapalan ko n mukha ko. pasok ako, ntawag n daw ako. malas. tas inaasar ako nila aisa bout sa result ng exam. bsta, ewan. dko maintindihan. kinakabahan xe ko, sna wag ako i-mark na absent. tas my question, wla sumasgot. tas tinuruan nila ko. so un, sagot nmn ako. haha, tas sbi ni dra cruz..'aba present na bigla c dra cortes' haha, nkakahiya :P

theo na, nagcut kme. bad.. sinamahan xe nmen c ais s st lukes e. chka pinasaya nmen c nel. wla s mood dhil yta sa result ng exam at heart problem. hehe. tas un. met 2 pipol na aliw. c ate gina, christian sia. tas nkakainspire ung mga cnabi nia smen. tas c doc tiong, dme binigay na tips smen tungkol sa pagmemed :)

lunch na, pancake house. nagchicken sandwich lng ako xe yaw nmen mgrice. tas c ais, dpat diet.. hahah, combo meal p order nila nina nel at peewee. tas un, kwentuhan. narealize nmen n masyado n kme mgastos. kya un, tipid n kme mula tom. hehe :)

blik na kme skul tas wtf??!!! late n nmn. waah! so un, lec ng ana. tas break na, dme ngaasar bout dun nga sa result ng exams. hehe, tas un. pinakita sken ni marte. tas un. nice nice :)) bsta sa neuro, physio at ana. hehe. kya un. biochem, fcm at histo nlng. shett, yan p nahuli..e un ung mga pnakamahirap for me.

lec uli after break. tas una tumabi c ais smen. sbi nmen dun n sia k peewee. tas un. tampururot. haha. tas wla, d kme nkinig ni nel. haha. tamad e. so un, punta kme comp lab after. tas inaasar n nmn ako dun. haha. tawa nlng ng tawa :P

paglabas nmen, kulitan lng dun. tas itong c jesse aka pompoy! hehe. binuhat ba nmn ako!! waaah! tas nagaasaran pa cla, pasahan daw! haha. tas nung pauwi na kme, buhat uli nia ko tas tinakbo pko this time. waaah!! nahilo ako dun. sooobra!! haay nkooo ka pomps!!!! haha :P

aun lng, sleep nko... :)

2006-08-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

huuuuuyyy... :) d ako late! :P

1st subject nmen, psych. boring :( nkakatawa lng xe ktext nmen cna ian at rey. haha, kulit!.. inaasar xe nmen c ian n amin lng sia ni nel.. tas my song n kme for him. akin ka nlng.. hehe, so un.. pnaparemember lng nmen s knya by texting the lyrics. :))

canteen nung break. sandwich uli chaka ung pasta na gawa ni ate sara, feeling close hehe. yummy :))

pgblik, lecture in anatomy. trans kme, kya un..sulat ng notes. nkktawa xe c doc daw may kakaibang scent. haha :P kwawa ung mga nsa front :)

lunch kme sa rob place. may lq xe ung iba e, haha. so un, i was with nel and ais lng. ate sa foodcourt. pusit!!! :) tas sound trip lng sa car ni nel, nkakatawa c ais xe ung mga songs na piniplay nia, sia lng may alam. d kme mkarelate. haha :P

tas un, ana uli. trans uli. after, lab na. cadaver chaka stuff. mdali lng siang imemorize ngyon kya un. :) at 430, lab quiz uli. i think, i did ok nmn. ;))

after class, bati na sila!! hehe. so un, hinatid muna nmen c daddy rey. nkakatawa xe knakabahan na sia, wawa nmn. mali xe ung way n npuntahan nmen e..hehe, sadya! :P so un, after, baywalk kme. hnap ng resto dhil gutom n kme. sa sobrang pili, umabot n kme ng malate. waaah! sobrang kpagod at nkkgutom!!! tas sa aristocrat dn pla kme bumagsak..haha. we ate chicken bbq. ok nman. basta un.

uwi na after, mga low batt na kme e. thanks pla k peewee for partially treating us! :))

2006-08-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

syempre puyat n nmn ako. hahah.

late nko knina, start na quiz. so un, habol nlng. hehe :)

tas wla pdn cna ais at nel. so dun ako kina rey tumabi. ang kulit nila. haha. tas un. wala masyado ngyari, boring :(

tas nagbreak kme, eat lng kme sandwich sa canteen. tas ksama nmen c doc escobar sa table. haha, ang kulit at ang cute. hehe. basta love nmen sia tlaga :D

tas un, d na nagresume ung class. sa room lng kme, katext ko lng c ate. updates lng of what happened yesterday. nkakatawa din. hehe. ang kulit xe nia e, nageenjoy. haha.

tas un, lunch na! eat kme sa chowking. halo-halo!! :) tas, may nlaman kme. haha, secret daw e. bsta, congrats sa inyo. at manlilibre pla c peewee tom dhil dun! haha :P

discussion uli after lunch. boring nnmn! tas un, txt lng ako ng txt. tas after class, antok n tlga ako. e wla ksma c nel, so un. punta muna kme sa st jude. pray lng. tas uwi n dn. ksma nmen c ian, dinaan ko cla lrt.

aun lng, wla ngyari ngayon e. tas, natulog nko pguwi.. :))

2006-08-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

woke up at around 6. buti nlng 1pm pa pasok nmen. wla n c jp, umuwi daw e, dko nmalayan. bsta iba na pwesto. prang ang tgal kong nagsleep. hehe.

so un, ang gulo na. prepare n lhat. tas basta arnd 7 na yta nung bumaba kme. eat ng breakfast. tas sumabay na cla kna peewee. pagbalik ko haus, shett. tulog agad sa sobrang antok.

c den gumising sken ng 12. sbay daw sia pumasok. tas un, e late na. tas mliligo pa ako and stuff. so un, nauna na sia. d p ko gumising nun. bsta after 30 mins p yta ako bumangon e.

bsta, late ako. txt ako ni marte. wg n daw kme pumasok. haha, ang kulit. tas eto pa pla, coding ako! waah! nremember ko nlng nung nsa nagtahan nko. e dun lng nmn ung mdaming police. buti nlng.... :)

after clas, gutom nko. d n xe ko nkakain dahil nga late nko. so un, wendy's kme nina nel, ais at peewee. tas sobrang foodtrip. biggie size!!! haha, shett, sket sa tiyan.

tas dpat c den nlng mauuwi ng car xe nga coding. tas nagbago isip ko.edi nagalit sia. leche. bhala sia noh! :(

punta kme knia ais. pero nagpaburn muna kme ng cd. weeeh!! nice :) tas un. uwi na din. ksabay ko c nel. kwentuhan! :) nlaman ko na wla pla akong katabi nung sleepover. xe magkasama ung loveteam at ung love triangle. haha. basta un na un. dinaan ko c nel sa lrt station, tas un.

nagtxt c ate. bsta un, my problem lng. so un, meet kme sa sm cnterpoint. tas anu ba.. ahh, park kme sa jollibee sa e. rod. tas un, syempre nagtalk dba? after, nagdrive thru din xe gutom n c ate. e im still full from our wendy's foodtrip. tas un, park ulit. tas nung late na, hinatid ko sia sa sakayan. e mga 12 n yta un, wla na fx. so nagjeep sia.

ate.. watever happens..im always here ok?
i promise :) don't cry na. don't worry too much.
remember mo lng, mbait ka and its not your fault na isa siang scammer!!!
haay, leche sia. grrr..

2006-08-01T02:12:00.000+08:00

today was really fun!! yey to the next level!!! :))

wel, d ako nkpagstudy for histo. at npakahirap po ng exam. shett, bagsak yata ako dun :(

anyways, after ng exams. mga 4pm un. niyaya xe nmen cla, tas may nagyaya din s knila.pero smen cla sumama! :))

pumunta muna kme s hi top. grocery kme nina nel, jesse, stephen at ian. after, d2 uli sa haus. eat uli pansit canton. hehe.watch din kme ng date movie. laugh trip lng. kulit nila :P

dating n cna ais, jp at peewee. pero thay ate muna outside. kya un, inuman daw. un, bili daw sila.

after the movie, inaantok. una, massage ako ni stephen. grabe srap sa likod. tas nung humiga nko, c jesse nman. grabe, sarap matulog. nice nice :)

pagkagising ko, andian n cla. tas may dala nga talagang drinks na u know.. hehe :P

so un, inom ang boys, watch kme ng memoirs of a geisha. c ais lng pla. haha, laugh trip. lakas mgbasa ng caption. haha, tas myamya.. c stephen lasing n. tawa kme ng tawa tlga. haha, xe puro sia facts and trivia.. guys, alam nio ba.... haha, laugh trip. :P

nung naubos na, 1am n yta un. aun, kulitan tas higa na din. biglaang sleepover! yes nman! nice :) sa bed, kmeng girls at c peewee. sa baba cna ian, jesse, stephen at jp. tulog agad c stephen syempre. haha :P watch uli kme nina ais, nel at jp ng my sassy girl. tas c ian, kinailangan umuwi. hnanap xe ng dad nia e..

tas un, nkatulog n pla ko..

2006-07-31T02:25:00.000+08:00

we had our fcm exam muna, which was uhmm, hard. basta, ang labo xe nung exam e. hehe. tas after, d na naawa, naglecture pa. 1 hour pa yta. bad trip un. :(

after, we had our brunch sa mcdo. saya, xe ang dme nmen. us, cna meldy, cna jesse and cna cj. tas un, nuggets!! :) tas hot fudge sundae pa!!! treat ni daddy rey :))

uwian na after,ksabay ko c ian and nel sa lrt. tas nung bumaba nko, sumunod cla. hehe. tas un, txt nmen cna stephen at jesse n sa haus mgstudy. ayaw ni jesse xe antok n daw sia. tas c stephen, un punta daw sia.

so there, we all went here sa haus. una, rumiread pa kme kunwari. tas after a while, tnamad na. tas eat pla kme pansit canton with boiled egg. ewan, pero sarap na sarap kme. hehe. tas laro lng kme ng kung anu-ano.chaka pillow fight. chaka daganan. haha. :D they left around 6 na.

c angel nman dumating ng 6:30. wla lng. tumawag din c novi. onting kwentuhan lng kme ni angel xe pagod sia from work. uwi din sia around 7.

tas ako nmn, punta ng despidida dinner ni tin. pero punta lng, d nko nageat. late ako e, hehe. tas wla nmn ginawa dun. nagkulitan lng. chaka ngwatch din ng pda. alis na xe c tin tom, kya dme work.

uwi nko around 1am. d nko nkastudy.. pasaway e. hehe :P